Ive said before that im tired of how society works and it hasnt improved. I dont think it will. Im tired how everything revolves around money. Every single thing i want costs something and im tired of it. I dont know what to do but try to accept that it works like this. But how can i accept if all the jobs available for me are not what i want to work in, even temporarily, even if i accepte it i wont have money until the next month, so it feels like im always working for nothing. Sometimes all i want is to smoke weed and play guitar (that i finally decided to actually learn it) but guess what? I need to buy weed and the only way is working. I cant put myself through uncomfortable jobs because i know i wont last, i know i will hate it and ill complain a lot, specially if i think something can be changed. I want to change the world, everything and every place is sad to me. I wonder if money will make me happier and it might, since i will be able to buy what i want, ill be able to buy things for others who need, but idk, i need more, i feel like i cant rest until the world is changed, until people stop dying for being who they are, until wars stop because they are just stupid, until we can leave in peace. In that world prices would be fair, so do jobs. People will have houses they can afford. Thats just a vent and it sounds like im 17 or something, i feel foolish for not working because that is all we can do, work and pretend we live, that’s how i see it and im not doing any and i dont know how to move on but to find a job i will hate that will pay me misery for me to keep living in misery
I feel you on this. Its seriously hard, I went from 245 to 242 to 124 dollars worth of food stamps, & I cant do anything with that I literally spent all of it this month & its still not enough
At least you have something like food stamps to help, i dont know how they work and thanks for understanding
Of course. Its basically money for food, & I couldn’t explan it to you because trying to explain things its a bit hard for me.
I googled it so no worries, explaining things is not my best suit as well
Ya, i get it, all my life i’ve known that the social construct of the society we live in, is a little twisted, i’ve gone through a lot of jobs in my life, & have had great social difficulties in keeping job’s, but money is what a person needs to survive in this world. the weird thing about my issues is that the so called subculture life style came naturally to me. In the free society, being a social odd ball is a negative, yet in the subculture it’s an asset, but ya, civilization in general is on a destructive path & the spirituality of humanity is quickly diminishing and I don’t see it getting better
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I suffered, with ever increasing intensity as the years went by, for over 35 years.
I hated life and everything in it. I went through the motions of living but without knowing why I was bothering. I could write many pages of how awful, ugly and debilitating it was, but I won’t do so here because it’s not appropriate, as my reply is about you situation.
When I eventually ended my suffering, I discovered a great many things, three of which I will flesh out for you here.
• Whenever we are talking about things that only exist in the mind, we have to be very, very, very, very precise about how we use language and especially, about identifying precisely what the problem(s) is/are. This is because without precision, it is very easy for misunderstandings to occur, which can lead to further problems as a result as well as people making key/life changing and possibly irreversible decisions.
This aspect is even more important when we are in a text only space, like this site.
• When multiple issues have been correctly identified, it’s important to only tackle one issue at a time. Trying to handle multiple issues at the same time can be counter-productive and perhaps damaging.
• Nothing “out there” can actually affect our mind in and of itself, including what other people say or do.
I know almost everyone thinks “X” happens/is said and then another person feels/thinks “Y” but it’s an impossibility for external things to actually directly affect anyone.
What happens is that there is a middle step between something happening/is said and a resulting response in someone. That middle step is thoughts. Thoughts happen very quickly (at light speed) and so most people are not aware of them.
What someone thinks about something is what actually causes the response that they feel, good or bad. Without that middle step, a person simply can’t be invoked into a response simply by any external thing happening or something being said.
What this means for you is that what you feel/think about the many things in society/your life are all self-created in your mind. You may feel trapped into a corner or feel you have limited space/limited choices available. But this isn’t actually so and it’s only a perception that you have. That perception can be changed but only by yourself.
I hated almost every job I did and it was always drudgery, even with the jobs I did like a bit. I never knew what I wanted to do and never did find out, something that I think may be quite common. But what I did not discover until I had stopped working is that most people, including myself, have the wrong expectations about what work is supposed to provide. As a result, job dissatisfaction sets in for many people and such people tend to leave jobs on a regular basis.
Once you are realistic about what work can provide and what it cannot provide, you will probably feel a bit better, calmer and more willing to consider work that you previously declined.
I will also tell you that despite how any job seems/appears, or even those jobs which you have tried before, almost any job, when seen realistically and without denigration/resentment, can be made into quite a satisfying way to pass some of your time, regardless of how much money you receive doing it.
I would suggest you forget about “society” and how you think it is and that you don’t agree with it all and why can’t it get better, etc. You will probably find that focusing your time and mind on direct interactions with people will provide a more satisfying way to live, rather than looking at what the wider society is like or what it seems like. Try to focus your attention on the things that you can control rather than those things that you cannot control.
There are many more things that I could say, but it would make a giant posting and I think people tend not to want to read those. I think this posting might be big enough already!
If you have any questions or want me to clarify something, just let me know.