44 days sober and "new" addiction

Addiction & Recovery Substance Abuse
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I haven't posted here in a little while. I found myself giving advise to people, and I'm not sure I'm really qualified to do that. I messed up my own life, who am I to give others advise???? Really just me feeling sorry for myself.

But anyway, if my math is correct, I've been sober for 44 days. The physical withdrawl was a little rough. And I'm not sure if I'm fully over it. I've had a lot of "stomach" pains since I've stopped drinking. I'm thinking maybe I should see a doctor about that. My mind has been wandering and now I'm thinking I have some type of digestive tract problem and didn't know it because I was always numb from being drunk.

I also found myself getting bored when not working. And it is when I'm bored, I have to fight with myself not to reach for a drink. So, to keep from being bored, I got back into strength training. I lifted weights when I was younger, so I thought it would be fun to start up again. A dangerous thing to do when you have an addictive personality like I have. Now I'm obsessed with it. I find myself taking time from my work day to read about it and research new techniques and products. On the days I'm not lifting, I'm doing cardio workouts.

I realize I switched a bad habit for a good one. And that's a good thing. But I'm worried about the fact that I do have such an addictive personality. I've become more aware of my surroundings and have actually started worrying about what people think of me. Stuff I've never cared about before. And this has led me to reflect, maybe too much, on who I am. So as I'm sitting here playing with the "burn" from the last work out and writing this, I'm worrying that I'm heading for some kind of a mental breakdown. I'm not sure I can do anything in a normal way. I take things to extreme. I drank to an extreme. And eventhough it has only been for a short time, now I'm lifting to an extreme.

Am I the only one like this????

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We go to "extreme" when we want to get away, as fast as possible, from the problem that we had. Do not be hard on yourself, to change your lifestyle it will take a lot of strength and effort, and also will take time. Do not worry about what others think, concentrate to improve your life and yourself, and you will be happy with the result. Say a prayer when you can and ask Our Lord to guide you. God bless you.

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it's funny i guess that i read this, as i am looking at my abuses and how i handled it all and started thinking that in order to keep my mind off of booze that i would exercise. the exact thing you are concerned with is the first thought that i had when i thought of how to deal with my issues. i agree with marcie as to not be hard on yourself. i am only @ day 2 now but have been @ 44 in the past and i was just working as much as possible to keep me busy. for now just be glad you're sober :)

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Hey I remember your post from before ... I'm sober 7 months now and I'm full swing into yoga .. I practice everyday and I feel amazing .. I know what your saying bout overdoing it .. But maybe it's our type of personality ... Just channel your energy the right way ... Don't beat yourself up .. As long as I'm sober I can rationalse and when I want yoga 2x a day I stop myself .. I allow 1 hr of exercise a day ... !! Well done on your 44 days x

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As of this post, 44 days is awesome. since as of this one, I have 26 days. I do not do yoga or gym stuff. In summer, I am active, but in the winter, ahh no. So, my mental attitutde is on me. I just wanted to share that whatever experience, strength, hope you have at 44 days can help someone like me. Thanks.