the xanax is working but I am still just overwhelmed with the combination of things bothering me.
It has taken me an hour and a half to write this post .
because I have deleted so much of what I've written .
Next appt with counselor 9/28/10
Feel like I need additional meds already this sucks
THats funny, that you delete what you right, I just deleted a comment, self censorship is good though.
I think the main cause for increasing rate of anxiety is more hard-work and not proper rest. I have also felling more anxiety and so many other mental problems.
mrbipolardad - i am sorry you are still feeling overwhelmed, give the xanax some time to really take effect. do you do any exercises, like breathing techniques, to help you when you have anxiety? Maybe try different things to lessen the stress, like taking a break to go outside, or 5 minutes to meditate and clear your mind. I am glad that you are seeing a counselor, i know that talking to them and getting it all out there will help. Good luck, and feel better!
I have been walking every day , about to go out right now.
Too much going on to explain except that I can only take so much . Walking the dog will end Saturday when she will be rehomed. Sad , I will start bike riding again. The worry of taking care of an animal will be over , but my heart will break when she goes. My daughters too.
But she knows how much work it is especially in the winter we live in an upstairs apartment. Icy stairs ect..
Sister and Brother in law have moved away from the area.
they were my only relatives that live close by.
all are 5 hours away or more now.
But I have my Church. I have my daughter.
I have a few friends , and now I have you here.
I am sad, but handeling it better with meds
I am glad that you have a chance to get outside and clear your mind. I hope that helps and I hope that bike riding helps too. I know losing your dog will be tough, but it sounds like you are doing it for the right reasons and putting yourself first, which can be really hard to do. And it is also great that you are looking at what you have in your area, like your daughter, church and friends. That good attitude will get you through this tough time. Good luck, and let us know how you are doing.
The bike ride yesterday was a good workout for both of us.
I walked the dog this morning for about 2 miles.
This afternoon we will go see some balloons , it is balloon festival weekend here, but doesn’t it figure I’m almost totally broke until next friday. So I will have to find a way to have fun without money.
We have six flagg season passes, so we will go Saturday after the dog goes with her foster mom.
All of this is not easy and I can’t even imagine the hole
that the dog being gone will create. But could not figure a better way because no one close would take her.
Sad day our dog tasha rehomed , we spent all morning
walking, grooming, videoing, just loving her .
she left at noon and then we went to 6 flags to ease the tension for katie my daughter. we cried some , but the impact is not totally over , she is watching the videos with her friend , I can't yet.
I still feel her kisses on my face and it already seems like she has been gone a long time.
i’m sorry that your dog is gone, but at least you know you are making the right decision for you and for the dog right now. In time things will get better. And i am glad that you had a chance to get out with your daughter and enjoy the day. Its really nice that you have videos, and who knows how things will turn around in the future. Do you get to visit the dog at all?
No, no visits she is in Conn. we are in NY she is fostered for 3 months then prospective new owners are screened before dog is placed . really a good Org. jccare .
Doesn't help the sadness of missing her , I try not to show how much it hurts but sometimes can't help it .
It is so quiet , I am trying to adjust.
Thank God for meds
because of the meds I was able to rehome her ,
or I would have fallen apart.
It will be tough because, obviously, you cared very much for her. I am glad the meds are helping. Remember that you are taking the steps to make a better life and while this is hard is was what you had to do. Cherish the good memories, but look forward to happier times.
well thank you for the reply victoria1981
The meds are helping to some degree thank the Lord.
Still find myself reminding myself that the dog is gone.
I just got back from therapy appt. and finding out
again what a long process getting help is.
I go back in a week to finish application for case mgt.that will take about a month to get into, she said..
and to see the DR.Physc. is not until NOV 5th . She seems to think I am on the wrong meds so he will check them.
so for now I just seem to be in limbo which is not where
I want to be, but nothing is easy so I need to work on what I can.
I hate to be or sound selfish but nothing else matters right now except getting me fixed or I am just no help to myself or anyone else. thanks again for your reply
Sometimes you have to be selfish and look about for you, because if you are not healthy then you cannot be healthy for anyone else. And of course this will all take time, just remember each day is a day to get better. I am glad you will see the psych in november, hopefully they can help you get the right medication you need.
thanks again i do have therapy next tuesday again and also case mgt the same day they moved that up from a month so maybe the physc will get moved up too i hope.
learned some relaxation tecniques i found on youtube
yesterday and listening to relaxation sounds like the ocean
i love the ocean the smell and sounds would love to be taking a walk in the sand in bare feet.
hope my migraine goes away day 2 uggh
sorry about the migraine, hope that went away. I am so glad that the case mgt was moved up, that is great news and hopefully they can keep helping you. Relaxation techniques are key, i like deep breathing personally to relieve stress and anxiety. Something about closing my eyes and taking 3 deep breaths really helps focus the mind.
thanks victoria1981 the headache lasted 2-3 days woke up saturday without it . today @1:30pm I meet with case mgt.
I am on SSD and I read somewhere here in a post someone
was able to get help paying for meds , I am surrendering
my will to God and letting Him guide me in the right direction.
My anxiety levels have been managable.
I learned a deep breathing exercise 11 years ago it has always helped but I found some other relaxation excercises
that worked so good that I was really impressed.
thanks for the message reading sincere messages really are helpful too !
ohoh! xanax is bad! switch to clonopine and another excellent the most excellent anxiety medicine is called BUSPAR. tell your doctor, it saved my life.
i cant change anything now , after 11/5 when i see the physc he will make the changes
It really sorry that dog is gone.
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