Hi, I hope I'm using the interface right, it's my first time here.
I'm 15 with no existing instances of self injury, except for some recent issues with biting or scratching myself out of anger/to calm down. But recently, I pick up sharp objects and hold them near myself or come close to something else that could do me harm unintentionally. Almost gouged out my eyes with my nails a few times, left a few marks on my forehead, and just a little while ago I almost jabbed a pencil through the roof of my mouth before I realized what I was doing.
I'm not particularly religious, but I like to think that someone listens to the things I won't even tell myself, and I keep telling myself that the whole 'suicide precludes heaven' thing is a good thought to keep. And however sad I might feel sometimes, I'm friends with excellent people who can pull me out of it. So I wouldn't think I would injure myself or anything, but I have close-calls that are against my own will. My parents shrug off any issues I say I have, they're kinda jokers who either don't take things seriously or go into fits of nonviolent anger/sobbing. I haven't told them about the serious stuff, though, because they generally make me feel worse (y'know, sometimes you just have to cry or brood on your own for a little while).
Anyways, I'm not really sure what the issue is... But I thought it would help if I put it out there.
I know what you mean about your parents. Mine don't want to admit that I might have a medical condition when I'm in pain at least a few times a day. Sometimes I can't even breathe. But they won't take me seriously.
As for the issue itself, I've never really heard of things like you're describing. I mean, if you really don't have control. Maybe you need to talk to someone outside of your family and friends. Like, a counselor or someone. Someone you can explain your problem to that may be able to give you constructive advice. Maybe the school guidance counselor? Well, that's really all I can tell you.
I want to say it's not that they don't want to admit there are problems sometimes parents forget what being a teenager is like its a rough time it's full of pressures that can be unbearable we adults tend to forget the cattiness of teenage girls as we have gotten older and our adult problems have taken over and some believe that if we admit that our children have deep problems then we have let them down or failed them but by denying them we are actually doing more harm then good
Hurting yourself is a cry for them to notice your hurting and need them to care more about you then they do about their problems .you might be hurting yourself for that reason because you need someone to notice and once you yourself admit what the problems are that your struggling with then how can you expect your parents to notice or understand?
You have to be able to explain to them in terms that they can understand if they are to understand what you are doing this I am sure is something they themselves have never experienced and have no understanding of it some thing you could do is go to some websites about it and print them leave them around for them to find they will and they will read them and start to wonder why their there and who is leaving them then you can approach them about your fears you need to educate them about it too and they will react they just don't know what you are trying to say to them