I have realized in the last few years ( since the adderall began ) how much my life had gone down hill. I was 19 years old the first time I took adderall, my older brother had it because he has ADHD, I was sitting at home and needed to be doing things, I knew he had it so I asked to use it. I took it and oh my gosh, my world - was amazing. I gave him money for his whole month and I took it every day. I have a lot of issues with my body image, and psychosis with that, that needs medical attention- very severe body image depression, but in that moment I had found a miracle that made me never want to eat - but , go go go! Its odd, I think onto my life since that day and it is all so destructive after. I quit my full time job and began partying non stop, I was becoming so skinny and I could not love it more. IT was ups and downs from there on out, I tricked my dr into thinking I had a mental disorder for it, but neglected to say the real mental disorders I had such as deppression and body image issues. I still til this day take it, not as much as I once did but the most sad part about it all is I realize I am most afraid of going off of it because of the weight gain. I suppose I should speak with a professional so I can try and treat that so my fear will let me let go of this drug addiction. Common sense says being starved is nothing to do to yourself, but I honestly cant think of a time in the last 3 years I have even thought of not being on it. My moods are not stable, I am so high all day and I crash at night, I also am weaning off of klonopin ( with drs help ) and as I get lower, the more mean I become at night when I used to cool down with my anxiety pills
Does any one know great advice about getting off of this horrible drug ?