Two weeks ago, I admitted to myself that I am, indeed, an alcoholic. However, I did not stop drinking. Tonite will be the first night of no alcohol.
I've been drinking most of my life - beer primarily - I have told people that I love the taste of it, which I do, but I need to stop because it is ruining my life.
Alcohol is running my life - I am no longer in control. I put things off because I need to set apart time to drink at night. I stop at the liquor store every night, always a different one. The weekends are the worse and I usually end up missing work on Monday because of it.
I sit here and think about my wonderful parents, my true friends, a well paying job, and I cry at how stupid I am. God has given me so much in my life and I just wasted it all. I don't deserve all the good in my life and it's because of the alcohol addiction.
I want to kick this habit so badly - today is day one. I've got to do this. I need to do it for my well being and I don't want to be dependent on alcohol ever again. I don't want this disease to hurt my parents - the last thing I ever want is for my parents to find me dead in my apartment because I drank too much.
I am happy to be a part of this support group and am determined to make this work.
Excellant job of owning up to whats going on & I admire you for that, one day at a time & as you start moment by moment & get thru to the next moment you will really be feeling thankful for whats in your life not what isnt. Proud of you.
Take care of you & keep sharing we learn so much from what people are really doing.
Good Luck =D. I say I am a food addict, but I know that is nothing compared to alcoholism, but I believe sharing your thoughts and feeling here will help some, so stay determined. OK?
Wow I am so glad I read your post. It trully gave me support. This is my second day sober and I also have been through alot. But this is it. This is the time and place where I start living life without alcohol. And I am so glad to know that I am not alone in this process. Thank you for sharing and let us give ourselves a chance for happiness living sober day by day.
Hey nuevavida, Congratulations on 2 days! Way to go! Have you ever gone to any AA meetings? At AA I found understanding, help, and support from others who had been where I was. Just keep taking it one day at a time and try out the AA meetings. They were helpful in my getting sober and staying sober. Keep coming and sharing with us and letting us know how you are doing. We care. ((((hugs))))
Hi FinallyOwningUp, Good for you on making the decision to not drink. Have you gone to any AA http://www.aa.org/ meetings? If you have not, then I suggest checking them out. There you will find people who understand and will offer you support. I went to AA myself and found help and support there. Keep hanging in there and taking it one day at a time. It will get better. Just for today - don't drink. Keep sharing with us. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))
Thanks for all your posts. How are you guys doing? Today is another day one for me- but I feel committed this time. I need to own up as well that alcohol is starting to take over my life. I wish I was on day three or four with you all! Does it get easier??
Hi KAT1, Welcome to SupportGroups.com. How are you doing today? It can be rough in the beginning but with time it does get better. Have you gone to any AA http://www.aa.org/ meetings? If you haven’t, then I suggest going to one. You don’t have to say anything. Just listen - listen for the likenesses not the differences. Keep taking it one day at a time. Just for today don’t drink. Keep coming and letting us know how you are. We are here for you. ((((hugs))))
Hi, well done you have taken your first step addmiting that you have a drink problem.Next thing your not stupid you just have a drink problem which you have seen and are now tring to do something about it .. ASK YOURSELF AM I happy each time I take a drink .Am sure you know the answer the thing is are you prepared to do all that is needed to stop drinking . That answer is within you , you say your on day or day two, this it the time to seek help from AA or someone close that has been where you are now .Its not going to be easy but if you put in half as much as you put into getting a drink and take it one day at a time your in with a chance of making it and looking back years for now and knowing that what you did to change your life was the right thing to do.. SEEK HELP AA Is a great place you dont need to say anything just be part of it hear what others have to say in time you will feel good enough to join in and tell your story .You not alone meny others have been there and what you hear will help you .. Take your time Good luck .we can but try. We all have it within ourself to change no matter what....
Thanks for your note Bill. Well, I guess I will be back on day one again tomorrow. Too many deaths this week. I know that it is all part of God's plan, but it just hit me hard. And yes, I understand that AA will help. But I just don't think I am ready. The secret lining is that I made huge progress this week, and I am not ready to give up! I just slipped up a bit, as I see it. Always an optimist! I know that God is with me and we will lick this together:)! God Bless! Loved your comments!
OK So you slipped and it seems like a wee one and facing a death is not a easy thing to face .Be honest with yourself and dont put recovery of for to long . WHEN YOUR READY JUST GO FOR IT, do all you need to do and remember your not alone .. Take care
Hi KAT1, All of us whether in recovery or not, when we get up today are starting a new day. We all just have today - this twenty-four hours. Glad to hear you are beginning again today. I hope today is a better day for you. Keep us posted on how you are doing.
Thanks to both of you! I am more determined than ever today. I could hardly sleep last night. I turned it over to God this morning and feel really good about my decision. It is a new, beautiful today! God Bless you both! :)
Hi Kat, Great to hear from you. That is what I do also - turn it over to God. I can't, He Can, I will let Him. Sorry that you couldn't sleep last night hopefully that will get better with time. Keep coming back and letting us know how you are. I'll say a prayer for you also.
Thanks for being so very honest. Luck has nothing to do with it, It is addiction. I was Clean/Sober for 20 yrs then relapsed for about 4 yrs. Now on day 22. I do attend N.A. and A.A. meetings. Do I want to? No
but after I go, I always feel better. Have I wanted to take a drink/drug? Yes, but I know that the results are always the same. My best friend Is a functioning alcoholic if that is possible. I miss her. I cannot hang with her cause I will DRINK & then use. Leaving me with no money for food, gas, etc..I have also gone on line to Meetings which are held around 9pm. It just helps to either hear or read others who are walking the same path I am. If I could DO IT without consequences, I would. But, I know that I cannot. I am an Alcoholic/Addict. This week I looked up the words: Powerless, Unmanagable, Peace. May you find Serenity thru this site and others. Perhaps you might even go to a face to face meeting & tell us How you Related to the Topic/Others. Just For Today
I'm going through the exact same thing. I love beer. A few years ago I really got into craft brews and have really developed a taste for Belgians and Double IPA's almost exclusively...both of which usually have very high ABV contents. I don't know how to stop and all my friends and family tell me that moderation wont solve my problem and that I need to stop drinking completely. I am to the point now where serious consequences will ensue if I don't do something. So if you find a way or something, anything really that helps you, I would appreciate it if you would share. Good luck.
Thanks for sharing. Wow! Can I ever relate to what you said! I am actively drinking and every day I tell myself 'no more' but every night I'm at the liquor store. I feel so blessed too for all the great things in my life. I don't understand why I feel the need to drink. I also want my parents to see me happy for once in my life. I have had a lot of pain dealing with depression and anxiety and ptsd and my parents have been there for me always and I know that my pain causes them pain. I worry a lot about dying because I have such an unhealthy lifestyle. I have been to AA in and out many times. I honestly don't know how to stop. I keep trying every day. I am tired of the way I am living. Feeling hopeless right now.