Here I am sitting with a roomful of family celebrating Christmas. But really I'm all alone. I just feel like no one really knows if I'm here or not. Does anyone really care if I'm here or not? I'm not talking to anyone because they are all hanging out in their own little cliques. I've always felt like the outsider in my family, the black sheep. I don't feel like I have anything in common with them. Every single member of my family talks about their job, but because I don't work outside my home due to my disabilities does that mean I don't have anything to say? I mean, I read, I keep up with current events, I watch TV shows, etc. I just feel very much alone even among the people I ought to feel closest to.
Maybe try including yourself into the conversations instead of waiting for someone else to include you?
I do try that. With my family it doesn't seem to work. It's been like that all my life. I doubt it will ever change,after all we're all adults & pretty set in our ways. Even when I try to shake up the status quo, they also have to be willing to change. Until they too are willing to try it's not going to work. But I will still keep trying. Persist without exception.