The nights are the worst. Being alone in my apartment. To know that no one is there. I know that is not true God is always there but after having lived with someone for 28 years being alone the last 2 years have been hard. How do you handle the alone time. I work nights and that helps but it is still hard. I guess it is about ajusting to the change of no longer being a married person. There are times when I am glad I don't have to cook and clean after him and wonder what he is doing or where he is at not that I still don't sometimes wonder. I know that he is no longer my desponsibility. But that to is double edged. Yes I don't have to worry about him but then I have either mothered or taken care of someone for the last 30 years and now it is just me. I don't know how to take care of just me. Thank you Lord for all your many blessings. To live in a country where I am free, to have a place to sleep, food to eat, two wonderful children, a job, friends and family to love and support me, and most of all for the greatest gift Jesus who died that I might live and have eternal life. Thank you for the greatest gift ever given. I am sorry that somedays I don't thank you or give you the praise that I should. I pray for Don that you touch his life and bring him to know you in a personal way that his walk would be strengthened and that he would turn his life into serving you. Blessings to all the those struggling through divorce and all the many hurts that come with it. Peace to them. Your peace and grace. Goodnight my friends.
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This really touched my heart! I am separated soon to be divorced. Its a very long story we were married 18 yrs together 25. My ex was abusive Emotionally/financially/sexually/physically.
I was young and naive we got married at 21 there were red flags before we even got married. I guess I had hoped marriage would change him..I took my marriage vows seriously. I was not educated on abuse until 2 yrs ago. I always knew we had problems but never named it abuse until a year ago. I left with our 2 children hoping he would take notice that he had some problems HE never could see it . He did try to take some steps to better himself but always fell back to his old self. Then after our separation his sister disclosed to me he sexually abused her when she was5 he was 14 I met him 3 yrs later.
Somehow though I cared for him but as the years passed I was losing myself trying to keep him happy . Enabling him to treat me the way he did.
I have been on my own now for15 mths. I am doing OK but I totally understand your loneliness. I have not jumped into a new relationship for many reasons. I am not ready.My ex is already on his second relationship. And I have much healing to do.
my faith in god has grown he has blessed me over and over by providing for me and my 2 kids.He has protected us. One thing that never fails to amaze me is this site and the people here that I connect with.
I strongly believe that God led me to this site.
I know he is working in my life my counselor is a christian counselor I told her at my last visit that am very lonely and question what Gods plan is for my life.
So I do understand your loneliness.
Im here to talk when you need to feel less alone.
Love and Hugs
AG♥
thks. This site is definitely a blessing. To have others going through the same pain and to listen and be supportive helps beyond words. I have friends and family that listen but it is hard to feel what we are when you aren't experiencing it. I have done some counseling also. I believe that God has also blessed me through all the hurt and pain. I have an apartment that became available in one week from viewing it. I have had financial sercurity. People at my new church praying for me through it all. Just many things that only God could have made available. I feel sorry for my ex and the choices he made that brought this all on. I take some of the blame but try to forgive myself and let go of what he did to me and what was our family. Blessings to you.