before it's too late I need some advice/opinions from someone other than my family. I have elected not to attend my little cousins funeral on Thursday because I don't feel that I am mentally prepared. I have suffered a lot of loss in my lifetime that I am still suffering from, to include my dad and my oldest brother. Ergo my anxiety and depression. She was only 18 and had a blood clot in her lung. (im so sad) nonetheless, am I making it about me and being selfish, as I should support my family? Or is it ok because I truly know that I can't handle seeing this child being put away? I did visit last week @ the hospital and stayed until they unplugged her ventilator as well as went to their home to visit after she passed away. I can't deal with a funeral right now. Please, anyone, help!!!
Some people can not attend the funerals, it is very normal. Please, say a prayer for the young lady when you can and this is very important. God bless you and guide you through this difficult and emotional time.
In my humble opinion.....You are not being selfish. You have done what you could do. You can be proud of doing that. I am sure it was very difficult. And if you go to the funeral and lose it, that would not help anyone. Take care of yourself. Know that there will always be people in our lives who will not understand. Blessing.
thank you both very much!