To me, today, like so many others is a waste because I am anxious and panicky. I am sure that most of you can relate!
At the moment my anxiety levels are up because I have a pain in my chest. Thus, my mind screams heart attack (!!!!) the whole day long. I know that I am fine but the feeling is driving me up the wall! My mind is playing tricks on me and it is ruining the wonderful (true) life I have.
My wife is 3,5 months pregnant with our 1st baby. Instead of being over the moon, I am experiencing this severe panic. I am scared that I may not be a good enough dad to my newborn baby. I am scared that I might die before I have seen our child. I am scared of dying young and not being able to spend time with my family.
My whole (32 years young!!!!) body is "unhappy". My muscles tighten. I have IBS. I can't sleep. I feel panicky about the smallest little thing!
I am just seriously sick-and-tired of this. The quality I am looking for in life has disappeared!
Just good to get this off my chest! Thanks for taking the time to read this and share in my experiences!
Fear is just human, no one can blame you for being afraid, actually all those fears make you a good father to be. Because it proves that you wanna be there for your kid, you wanna be there for your family, and you wanna enjoy life. You are here, talking about it,that means you want to live a life free of panic, free of fear, and you can, you just need to have faith, faith in the future.
We can never know what's gonna happen, we can never predict how our life is gonna turn out to be, but we can hope, and try to make things better, to preserve the life we've got.
I wish you all the courage a person might get, life is giving you one of its greater gifts, a new life, a new born, don't over think what's gonna happen, just enjoy the moment. I know it's easier to say than to do, but you have that strength within you, we all have that strength.
I am so sorry to read of your suffering :{ Have you considered seeing a specialist? Oftentimes, people will suffer in silence but you took a courageous move and reached out to a community of people who care about you and your situation. Even if you shared your feeling with your primary care doctor, they are trained in knowing what to do for you that will bring immediate relief. A year ago I saw my regular doctor for my yearly checkup and told her of how I was feeling from the results of my broken marriage. I was actually shaking every day at the thought of losing so much and she immediately wrote me a prescription for an anti anxiety medication that worked the moment I took it. I have also read lots of books on anxiety and how our body feels panic when things are going normally all around us, so my advice to you is to reach out to a professional as well as staying connected here for the support you will need as you go through this difficult time in your life. I will be looking at your posts to see how you are doing :)
I understand how you feel. Please speak with your Physician. Oftentimes we fear the worse case scenario will happen. It is as though we feel undeserving of joy and happiness. Fear is so consuming. It takes away energy, hope, and peace of mind. There is so much help that can make a huge difference. Don't waste a minute. Put yourself at the top of your priority list and get the help you need. You are blessed with a wife and child. My son just turned 18. I want to turn the clock back and do it all again. You deserve to enjoy every second with your wife and baby.
