This is me venting again. I woke up at 4 in the morning, and I feel like I will start having panic attacks again. I recently started a new job at a very important global company, and it is much more fast-paced than I thought it would be. I am capable of doing my job, and this is a turning point where the next step is getting into management roles. I am in a very good position. However, I am not happy. I feel stressed all the time, and I work 10 to 12 hours a day or more, even having to put in weekends. It is crazy how much effort and time I have to put in. I am told that I am doing a good job, but I still don’t feel happy. I constantly feel like I am forgetting something or that something is not going to be right.
The cold weather also messes with my anxiety. I am happy that I finally bought my snowboarding equipment and will start snowboarding once the resort opens in December.
All of this is messing up my sleep and my normal rhythm. I just needed to vent.