Anyone else constantly tormented by images of like kissing the same sex?? At first it would cause me SO much anxiety to the point where I'd have to go home from school but now it's just like my brain has glitched and I don't have as much anxiety anymore. And now it's making me feel like I like it? Before this all I ever thought about was kissing boys and holding hands w them etc. and now every time I see a girl who's attractive my first thought is "did you want to kiss her?" It's torment because I just want to be able to be normal and have no issues with my girl friends anymore.
I also feel like that, before when my HOCD started I was supper grossed out, know it feels like I like and then I start getting super nervous and start shaking from anxiety. I'm literally so confused I don't feel like I was ever straight I feel like this is who I've always been but just until now am discovering or becoming. And that's what helps me because I remember in the past I just fantasized about boys and never about girls but still I question everything and am genuinely confused.