I don't know how to describe how i'm feeling but i'll try. It's almost like I feel weak or ashamed giving in to food in front of my friends. Then most of the time I end up b&ping alone but I just feel gahh I don't know but I get anxious and embarassed/ashamed when I eat like candy or ice cream in front of people. It's a new feeling and I was wondering whet people's thoughts were. Almost Friday!! :) Sonrisas
I get that sometimes too.
I'd think things like "They must think I'm such a pig eating this" especially because sometimes I go into binge mind set around them and it's hard to stop myself.
But you should never be ashamed to eat something in front of anyone! ...and you're not "giving into food"...you're eating something you want and are allowed to have!
Perhaps you are so anxious about these foods because it is the ones you mostly eat alone (while binging) and thus they have the label of a binging food on them...this could be a good way to turn that around! Get out of having them as a "bad" and "private" food and change them into fun food! Because that's what candy and icecream is, fun food! Yummy treats to, well, treat yourself with :) They should be enjoyable and have positive memories attached to them...such as Dairy Queen cakes. I always associate that with birthday parties with my friend. We used to try to eat it without cutlery lol it was messy, but hilarious.
I hope that helps,
Paige xoxo
I am overweight and feel ashamed when I eat anything no matter what it is. I hide much of what I eat.
I totally feel the same way--ashamed, guilty, wanting to hide... it's so much easier for me to eat alone than with people. Of course, it's so much easier to *restrict* alone as well. *Sigh*. I feel awful when other people see me eating--especially if I'm having a snack and nobody else is. That makes me feel horrible. But, as Paige pointed out, there's no reason that it should. There's nothing shameful about food. Everyone has to eat--and eat ENOUGH.
I also notice how much the label attached to a food can affect my perception of it. For example, I bought a banana popsicle once, and the cashier called it "ice cream". I could barely eat it. It made me cry. Similarly, it makes me crazy that Fig Newtons are called "cookies"--or "cake and fruit". They're a fine, healthy snack, but I have such negative associations with those words! Again, I know there's nothing wrong with foods like ice creams and cake, but I still freak out just hearing them. *Sigh*. But, again, going back once more to what Paige wrote (isn't she wonderful?), there's NO REASON to carry that shame around! We don't deserve to feel that way--we deserve to be proud of who we are and of doing what we need to do!
Yea like I should understand that eating food is normal and that ice cream is okay! Even watching the girl sitting next to me today in class eat half a sub made me like gahhh how can she eat that??? I want to be able to eat all of something. Like sit down and eat a cup of ice cream. All of it. And not freak out…hopefully that it what the future holds. And yes Paige is wonderful!! :):):):):)
Sonrisas
Today I ate some veggie soup at about 11am. By 2pm I was starving! I went to Taco Butt for a chicken taco and now I feel like such a freakin pig.
I feel such shame even LOOKING at anything that is not reminiscient of rabbit food.
Like in the store, I litterally watch the ppl around me to see if they are watching me and what I am buying.
If I feel like I am being watched, I won't buy anything to eat and leave the store.
I will hide in a room at work and eat sometimes so nobody will watch.