At certain times I feel like God makes me sad.
Hi.. May i ask why? Because of human nature sad things happen but when we believe we are never alone :)
It may be because he is punishing me for having oral sex.
Do you often judge yourself or things that happen?
I'm not sure.
If your conscious is biting, the best way is to make a change for the better that will contribute to easing your conscious. Think making such a change may help with your relationship which is very important. Only mean well, not to offend you.