I feel so useless and just...fat. All the time.
I ate 2 pieces of pie today at school, and THEN I had a chicken sandwhich with ketchup on it.
Why am I such a failure? I fasted all day yesterday, and then I do this and ruin it.
I just want to be 100 pounds. I'm 105 right now; my weight fluctuates way too much. I go from 105-103 on a daily basis.
On the plus side, I burned a lot of calories at softball today, but that's just not good enough.
Well my dear some day you will find yourself fluctuating 30 lbs monthly if you keep starvation as a tool. The rest of us have the thought fat often as well but it is disguised as something else usually. I feel inadequate-I feel out of control-I feel angry-I feel lonely: See a pattern here?
Most of the skinny girls I knew in school were 120 lbs and would lie about it to each other. Realize this! Women are notorious for lieing about their weight. Your friends that say they are 100 lbs-don't beleive it unless you see it. Unless you are 4'8 you should weigh over 100 lbs to be healthy.
i feel terrible when i eat more than i think too :( we have to try and learn to be AVERAGE everyday instead of extremes to be healthy... i was ok at school, but then terrible when i got home, i just joined because i felt really down about it all.. hope we can help each other :)