I hate everything about my appearance.
I can't accept a compliment.
I can't accept that someone might actually be falling in love with me so I ruin all my 'relationships'.
I'm scared that my father never being there for me has ruined my ability to fall in love.
I get scared when I have a good night out drinking. I don't want to become an alcoholic like my grandfather.
I'm scared thinking of the day when my grandmother forgets who I am.
I worry that I ruined my mothers life when she had me at age 19.
I'm scared that I won't have enough money to put myself through college.
I'm so scared about so many things that I'm scared it's going to ruin my life. I don't want to look back and regret my life.
I'm scared of messing up.
Take it easy on yourself. You are not going to let those things hinder you from being a good person. Just remember that a little goes a long way. When you are out drink something you like but maybe only have one, if someone gives you a compliment take it and let it go. Try not to read into it so deeply. This will only cause a chain effect of wondering that will make you feel uneasy. It can be hard growing up with people around you doing things that are not the best choices. You can take it and break the cycle. We are not our mothers or fathers and we can make it.
Excellant advice Wanting to get BRAVO, I hope they come back & read/talk more as we understand the processes of ridding ones self of some of this negative pain inside.
It is so hard to be born into a family and all you want to do is find the good so that you can emulate what you see. The down side is we can not always do that, we have choices to take some of the good but not the worst. As we grow we learn that the world and life can be so big and that who we are now does not mean it is who we will be through out.It take time but we are diiferent and don't have to portray others, we can be ourselves. No matter if we are sober, short, tan, happy, sad or cool. We can just be.