Beaten down again by my past, Everyone says it wont last

A poem by me:
Beaten down again by my past,
Everyone says it wont last.
I close my eyes and run away,
Hoping to keep the pain at bay.
No matter how far I seem to get,
It kicks me down with a bold threat.
"I will never let you be free from me,
You are mine and always will be."
I am a slave to the master called pain,
I cry, kick and scream but all in vain.
This nightmare keeps me from being free,
25 years and its all I can still see.
Today, yesterday or tomorrow,
They are all full of dread and sorrow.
Now I just go through the motions,
And take the doctor's potions.
And hope that maybe just one day,
That the pain will no longer have a say.

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hi,the pain goes away the moment you just let it go..you can let this pain go... a wound does heal if u don't bother it too much..
you keep scratching it things will not heal/just say I am not letting things bitter me but I will move forward with courage

@kaamini I wish it was that simple. Not even the very high dose of pain meds I am on takes the pain away. I’ve come to realize that the real purpose of pain medication is not to take away pain, but make you not care that you are in pain. it numbs the mind, not the area where the problem is.