I am becoming me.
The shadows have swallowed all but the memory of the shell I once was...
A gesture. A look. An easy passing comment...
These things can pull me back into the memory of discontent;
I can feel the ghost of pain leaning close against my skin.
Breathing softly against my cheek...
But I am changed.
I will not be cajoled into dangerous reminiscence...
I am standing taller.
Looking others in the eyes.
I can smile. And laugh.
I am sharing more of myself because there is more of me to share...
And I am less afraid of losing myself in the process.
I stared into the mirror this afternoon with surprise.
Returning my awestruck glance was a face that radiated health.
Life!
The eyes watching mine glistened with excitement over having been discovered...
I am no longer captive to fears and insecurities.
I am becoming aquainted with strength and peace.
And the joys of love.
For the first time, I am starting to see myself as lovable.
It's a new world.
And I'm happy to be in it.
Jen....those 'goose bumps' again! You have come so far, and I love what you have written! You faced so many fears, that may have seemed simple to unknowing eyes, but that took you right into that 'chaos' and not, to the other side!
I love this;
"I am standing taller.
Looking others in the eyes.
I can smile. And laugh.
I am sharing more of myself because there is more of me to share...
And I am less afraid of losing myself in the process.
I stared into the mirror this afternoon with surprise.
Returning my awestruck glance was a face that radiated health.
Life!"
You know there are challenges, and there always will be in life, but you no longer are pulling back from them, and I suspect that you are finding much more prepared to face them.
You are loveable...I'm so glad you are finally seeing it!!
Love you friend! ♥
Awww… Thanks, Jan!! 
Love you too, my friend!! 
wonderful, jen i am so proud of you--- i really hope i can get to where u are one day......
love
maureen
Maureen,
I know you CAN!! And I believe you WILL!!! ♥ ♥ ♥
No two journeys can ever possibly look the same... Nor should they. ♥ But you will find your own recovery, dear friend... You've got to keep on walking through it... ♥
Love,
Jen