Been a very long 36 hours... I'm so over this dissociative/

Been a very long 36 hours... I'm so over this dissociative/manic episode and the panic attacks... I've been too scared to even hold Salem for the past 36 hours. I held his hand for a second and he smiled and it triggered a panic attack because my brain registered him crying like he was afraid of me, not that he was smiling and happy to see me... This is the first time this has happened since he was born... I feel like he's gonna be scared of me as he gets older and realizes what is happening.

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I find that when I am stressed and anxious I need to stay grounded and focus on the present moment. Oftentimes, our Fearfull thoughts can become overwhelming and unmanageable when we project them into the future. Dealing with, what is , can be far easier and healthier than the scary what ifs.

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@andine Seems no matter what, I still have these episodes, it’s just been a while. There is no real treatment for it so I have been unmedicated for a long time.