Been doing okay. Maybe two months without porn. Still dealing with my paranoia. I was afraid I had to be hypervigilant to control myself, but I think it's better when I am calmer.
I habitually make myself feel aroused so I can pretend like I'm in a relationship with someone. This is one of my addictive habits I am still working on.
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Congratulations on your milestone. What's your next one?
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@sickofself So far just continuing without porn and getting to the roots of my problem.
Congrats on the milestone. Everyone has to set boundaries and work to avoid the things that trigger them. Sounds like you are getting a handle on yours, congrats on that also
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Hey Griz 75, I like your reply and proud that B3sket. Hope you are continuing on your pathe B3sket.
wow 2 months without pornography is amazing. It’s normal to want a relationship and a sex life. Maybe you can work on what you want that sex life to be like, try writing your fantasies down and imagining them instead. I think it’s about creating a healthy sexual experience, rather than trying to make something forbidden to yourself. Sort of like… if you eat lots of bad food, but what you want to do is introduce delicious healthy food too, so that you get full and have nutrients in your body. Sex is like that. It’s a healthy normal experience but pornography is like this distorted version of sex and love which makes the sex websites lots of money at the expense of you, the person watxhing. Because what you want, is to create a happy healthy loving bond with someone, and then have that sexual experience with them—which is 10 times more exciting that whatever weird story some man thought of —it’s not real. Maybe what you need is connection, and to be around women, and learn to connect with women deeply, and rhen be able to have intimate experiences. Quitting porn is such a huge accomplishment.