Been trying my best not to purge lately but it only makes me do it more because I tell myself don't purge and then I do since I'm thinking about purging and then I feel so guilty about purging because I know I'm suppose to be recovering.
Hey there, welcome! Recovery isn't just about "doing it, then not doing it" it isn't something we can turn off and on unfortunately. The road to recovery is bumpy, winding, and sometimes not very well lit. Nothing worth so much ever comes easy though, and you ARE worth it. You can do this! We are here for you.