Big problems here. I have inappropriate sexual thoughts constantly due to my paraphillic disorder, which means that I have sexual thoughts about everything–clothing, textures, animals, ideas.
I was doing well with my recovery until April. Things have been hell since. All the joy in my life is gone and I can’t seem to replace it with any legitimate source of joy. Everything is empty.
I can’t enjoy movies and TV because it reminds me of the bad things I think about. Anytime I try to get through it, I get the impulse to sexually attract people that I shouldn’t, and so I can’t get through it. I tried a little pickleball, which has been diverting and fun, but it doesn’t last forever; I can do chores around the house or go to stores on my downtime, but the pleasure doesn’t last long and it becomes unegaging. Where is intellectual stimulation when you need it?
I want to end this post by asking dearly for any help thst can be provided and apologize for any sexist or misogynist overtones to any previous posts.
Anything is appreciated.
Please help.