Can anyone relate?

MAKING It HAPPEN:

Stop trying so hard to make it happen.
Stop doing SO much, if doing so much is wearing you out or not achieving the desired results. STOP thinking so much and so hard about it! Stop worrying so about it. STOP trying to force, to manipulate, to coerce, or to make it happen.
Making things happen is controlling. We can take positive action to help things happen. We can do our part. But many of us do much more than our part. We overstep the boundaries from caring and doing our part into controlling, caretaking, and coercing.
Controlling is self-defeating. It doesn't work. By overextending ourselves to make something happen, we may actually be stopping it from happening.
Do your part in relaxed, peaceful harmony. Then let it go. Just let it go. Force yourself t let it go, if necessary. "Act as if." Put as much energy into letting it go as you have into trying to control. You'll get much better results.
It may not happen. It may not happen the way we wanted it to and hoped it would. But our controlling wouldn't have made it happen either.
Learn to let things happen because that's what they'll do anyway. And while we're waiting to see what happens, we'll be happier and so will those around us.

"Taken from daily meditations from Melody Beattie"

I agree with that. I tried too hard to force to make myself eat normally and all I've ended up doing is more exercise than ever to get rid of the good I'd done. I tried too hard to pretend that I didn't have an eating disorder today and that I'm just a healthy woman who watches her weight...but 6 hours of exercise on meals of fat-free yoghurt somehow doesn't feel normal. I'm trying too hard to find a solution...but it won't come. Maybe I shouldn't try to do anything and see if it all just falls into place.

i agree with this and i am going to try to do it issues with control thats what its all about is that stupid wanting complete control when we need to realize the world spins on its own every day without a single thing controlling it the sun comes up in the same way animals do thier thing all with out control just because its the natural thing to do oh to be natural yeah thats it natural not controlled lisen to your true nature thats it thats what i need to do my true nature not my eds nature its not natural its controlled like some illigal drug or something its not right its wrong i love this post today was already such a good day i am just in a good mood