Well, I didn't go to my appt. yesterday. I cancelled because I really didn't know anything about this woman and she didn't sound familiar with EDs, and two friends had told me about someone else that I thought would work better. That woman called yesterday and would only be able to see me at a time and day of the week that I could not commit to. It was in the afternoon and I am taxiing kids in the afternoon. She told me about a Dr. that she recommended, and I called him and left a message explaining that I need to see someone, and soon, and asked if he accepted my insurance. He called back this a.m. while I was gone, but didn't say if he did or not. he asked that I call him back, which I did, but I just got his machine. I'm starting to feel very discouraged. I will be seeing my regular primary doctor on Friday for a post surgical visit, and I will be getting bloodwork done. The last time my electrolytes and magnesium and potassium were dangerously low. I'm praying things look better this time though there's no reason they should because I'm not eating hardly anything. I need help! I wish I could get in to see a counselor...
Would being able to see a therapist drive you to eat? Likely not. If it was something u were ready for you would be trying even though hard as hell, to break the pattern on your own. Someone telling you *** bad what ur doing is and encouraging you to eat if you have no desire to change within yourself.
You’re right, of course. I guess I’m just hoping that someone can help me tap into the why of all this. I can’t help but think that if I can come face to face with whatever it is that’s motivating me to do it, I can conquer it. I’m just so lost. How do you fight something you can’t contain?
You could have seen a counselor but YOU cancelled! you say you wish you could see one but then you have an appointment and cancel it. All counselors have to learn about EDs as part of their training. They may not specialize in it but they all have knowledge of what they are and the problems people with ED face. I know it's not easy to see a counselor and talk about this but the first step really is the hardest and once you go there it will be easier. Give the therapist a chance. You can't know if she's good or not unless you've spoken with her a few times. It doesn't necessarily matter which specific counselor helps you as long as you get the help you need. You're kids depend on you and it's up to you to stay healthy so you can take care of them. The longer you wait to see someone the harder it will be and the worse the problem becomes. When you see your regular doctor try to ask him for a referral to a psychiatrist or psychologist or someone he recommends and make that appointment ASAP. find time to go. you'll only have to be there for about an hour. Also, try to find a good nutritionist that can help you come up with a healthy meal plan. Maybe planning things out could help also. I hope you get help. I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! You made an appointment once before and that was a hard thing to do now all you have to do is actually keep an appointment and you'll be one step closer to fighting this. Good Luck with this! I hope everything works out.
Thank you, Rose. Yes, it was difficult to make that appointment. I guess I just wanted to be sure it’s the right person. I was hoping to find someone that shares the same faith I have as I have seen others in the past (it’s been years and years) who have not shared my faith and it created a lot of conflict for me. These two who were recommended outwardly share my faith.
You are correct that I do not have to have someone who treats only EDs, and I need to remember that. I was going to give this man a chance to get back to me, and if he doesn’t take our insurance or it doesn’t work out for any reason, I will make another appt. with the first counselor. When I cancelled (message on her machine) I did not burn any bridges. I just told her that day didn’t work out and I’d get in touch with her again. And I will be asking the doctor for any referrals he can make as he knows who takes our insurance. I also had already planned to ask him for a referral to a nutritionist. Thank you so much for the good suggestions…
Its true waiting makes it harder to go! You need to push forward and go! Reguardless what you think at least its a step and that person can send you to someone else if they feel they need to! You are a strong person otherwise you would not have made the effort to find someone and try and go seek help.... Please keep us posted... Good luck we are behind you!!!
Thank you so much, Busyb. I actually don’t feel very strong right now, but I am working on it. I have to find an answer to this because I want to live…