Cant cope anymore

since i was 14 i knew i liked girls more than boys. ive just came out of a 15 month relationship with another girl. im 18 and at college, thinking i was a lesbian but now i don't know. i told a guy i had feelings for him, he laughed in my face and today i found out he's now with another girl. i don't no who i am, what i am. i feel like i cant go on, im starting to doubt if im even in the right body. for the last few months ive been depressed and crying all the time i have no one to talk to, none of my friends are gay i feel alone, and just need someone to talk to. please help.

Danni18
Follow your heart, in time you will know. I was 26 before I came to terms that I am a lesbian. I had always dated guys because that is what people told me I was suppose to do and some of them I had feelings for. In the long run I tried to pay attention to when and where and with whom I felt the most happy. You have your whole life ahead of you and many people will come and go and one day, you will just know in your heart without any outside influences. In the mean time do what you love to do, dont worry about a realtionship yet, be happy with you and it will come. Talk to a higher power if you have one, if you don't have one, get one. It can bring you much comfort through struggles in life.

yep yep.. I too still wonder how I could have dated men when I felt so strongly about women.. But if you take all the fears involved from, what I learn growing up and no one telling me it's ok to be me.. and they will love me just the same you have living a lie for a very long time.
If you are going to pursue being happy regardless of anyone's approval, than honey bunny... time to stop crying. It's time to make the choice to be Happy with yourself, for yourself, even if for a lil bit it seems like it's by yourself.
Truth is you are already on the right track ahead of the game. Reaching out and being brave enough to post your issues to gain support on this site was the best first step. Some of us have a very similar story and we are still here and alive to tell about it..You are gonna do fine and with time and focus you will be very confident in your life choices.

thank you so much, both of you. it has really helped :) i am going to be happy and have fun and just enjoy my life :)