Today my best friend came over and since my parents were home we went on a long walk since hey were both in a horrible mood. So while walking I just blurted out everything. How I've been having trouble and why I'm so upset with myself! I even told her the behaviors I have been having and she just listened. It was so great to get that off my chest! We went out after and got some dinner. Feeling the weight lifted off my shoulders I got more than I normally would and ate most of it. Then we went out for ice cream and I feel terrible. I feel huge and gross and I know I houldnt but I do. I even told my friend and she just kept reassuring me I am fine. I don't think I could eat for a week at how full I am! :( atleast I made some progress today right?
This is really good!
I am glad you were able to confide in someone you trust and get a good response... Don't forget that you are gonig to be ok! You can do this, one thing at a time - one day at a time.
Keep up the good work!
Thinking of you
CC
That's real good progress! Wish I could do that but I totally understand feeling guilty after... Like your friend said, you don't need to and what helps me sometimes in these situations is the realization that every day is a different day and everyday you start fresh and yesterday doesn't count.
It's amazing how good it feels to talk. I'm glad you went with the good feelings and decided to eat, and I'm so glad your friend was there for you. Something that worked for me was distracting after a meal. I would go play piano, watch TV (although now it's hard with every other commercial being a diet ad), play a computer game, or something else to take my mind off how full I felt until the feeling passed. After time I didn't have to spend so much time distracting after meals, and now it's no big deal. Progress, just like you said, progress.
Allee,
That's GREAT!! ♥ Talking feels soooo good. :) You're right, you have NOTHING to feel guilty for. Keep reminding yourself of that. It will get easier in time. :)
Love,
Jen
Allee,
That's fantastic to hear. It's so great to talk and now you know you have someone to completely trust too, that's brilliant news. Just take everyday as it comes. But what an awesome thing to know you have such support behind you.
Much love to you
Moongal x