So I am turning to here because I am not finding any good support groups in my area. Basically:
I am 21 right now, just graduated college. I have always questioned my sexuality since I went through puberty. The way I grew up, there is only either straight and gay. Ever since I was born, I've always had an attraction to girls and guys, but in two very different ways.
With girls, I always saw an emotional attraction. I would always get butterflies with the ones I really liked. I always saw some sort of future with a girl. Right when puberty hit, I was always "excited" around girls, but for some reason, I do not get excited as easily as I did before. Only girls I've really liked, I will get excited. With guys, I've only had a sexual attraction. Never felt that emotional attraction, but get "excited" easily around guys.
As you can see, I am just confused, and hiding it has been quite a trip. I have come out to a few friends, but I have run into a couple people, women who feel that I am gay and gays who feel that I am just hiding. The issue is, I have told everyone how I exactly feel about each of the sexes. This confusion has lead me to not go out and date around and explore as I was just afraid that I would one day wake up and not want that person.
I don't know who I end up with, but I definitely see a future more with a woman than a man. Obviously, I want to explore, but I guess I am just afraid of rejection.
What do you think? Has anyone else had this type of feeling?
I'm bi, and I am more attracted to guys than I am girls. I would rather be with a guy than a girl. Maybe you should date a guy and a girl at the same time, and see if you can realize what you really are.
I'm at that exact same point right now you are in or were in since its been a while since you posted this. How are things going now, I know that I'm not fully straight, I get excited around certain girls I like, but I also like looking at men and gay porn so I don't know if I'm just curious or am bi or gay. If you have figured out what has worked for you that's great. Maybe we can help each other out.
You know what, you dont have to know right now who you will end up with.Life is crazy enough, dont put that unnecessary pressure on your self. Your heart will lead you in a direction when you least expect it. We are in this world for just so long, Have fun, experiment, but most of all Be safe and always be respectful of the other person. You sound like a great guy and whoever you decide to be with, will be the lucky one. You have to live Your life, How awesome is that, You have enough love in you for not just women but for men to. More people should have that capability.
Dude hang in there, all you need to do is answer to yourself.
Things that are meant to be have a way of working out. Don't force yourself into something that you might regret later. If one night you and some guy friend are talking and then he leans it go with it if you feel it. Live in today and 30 years down the road when you wake up that right man or woman will wake up next to you and you'll know for sure that you made the right desicion.