I understand about taking one day at a time, sometimes it is one minute at a time. Both my parents are ill, and I spend a lot of time taking care of them, their house hold, bills and such. I don"t know how many times I have been in the middle of something only to get a call of panic.
I just sometimes feel so overwhelmed! I guess maybe it is just me feeling sorry for myself, like the other post said. But the reality is I am an only child trying to take care of 2 very sick parents (83 and 76 years old), I have two children of my own and a husband that has been unfaithful. I simply have days, like today that I just don"t know how to deal!
Sometimes I am just going through the motions, not really living. Just doing what everyone needs me to do! I have always been strong in that respect, do what you need to do, the best you can do it. But some how, which surprises me, I just don't have that spirit in me for myself any more! I want to know why, how do I get back to that?
I obviously can't just stop everything, so I guess feeling sorry for myself is all I have left! lol
You need pamper yourself, go do something that you really wanted to do and take a friend. Contact agency's to see if your parents have any free care available. I know that some places will send a bus and take the seniors to do activities.
Sounds like you have a big job to deal with. The infidelity is hard enough.
Sometimes it feels like that is all I can think about, and worry about. So I get it.
As I told someone else, walking has really helped.
One of the hardest things someone like you (and me) is to ask for help!. If your parents are very ill, look into the local hospice and get in house assistance. If you parents are not qualified for hospice assistance, they will refer you to an agency that CAN and will help you.
Do not take the weight of the world on your shoulders. You need time to yourself to regroup. You are currently going through the motions right now, and for you to move on, you need to go through the emotions.
We try to keep on a game face especially where our children are involved. Have you considered getting counseling? Even if it is just once a month? What about a manicure/pedicure? Something just for you that you don't have to share with anyone. You deserve it. And yes....a walk alone does wonders...
Hang in there...