I'm continually being angry about a past job putting me in bad situation by not telling me a contract was ending and then putting me as an independent contractor and then not paying me. This causing me unneccessary stress and health problems. I handle my finances very well but I had nothing to work with. Even though this situation happened two to three years ago I am so furious because it caused so many problems and was unneccessary. In addition, I don't really feel like moving forward with anything. I'm working somewhere else but my feelings about jobs and further education are discouragement. I feel like what is the point is all I wanted is a job that paid my bills and that I liked. Yet all I've had is problem jobs this past one being the worst with them not even paying me for two months. Plus I was there for four years and in that amount of time there was never any funding so my job was very very pointless and boring. I know now I've left this horrible job and work at a job I like. However, unlike other jobs I left because I didn't like them this one created real problems in my life franancially and health wise and this makes me so incredibly angry I can not even explain. It's kind of like I even got a degree to work in this field and yet I was not paid and was treated badly. So why would I want to go for more education. I kind of feel like this has been the worst care scenerio so what's the point not even if my job and everything in my life went perfectly nothing could make this situation better.I'm just so discouraged, upset and very angry. I just don't know what to do? Also it always seems like the peoplr who cause problems get rewarded why is this?
Hi Catgirl, thank you so much for sharing your story. I am so sorry for what you have been going through because of a past job. I can honestly tell you that the only way that you will ever be able to move on in a positive and healthy way is to completely let go of what happened in the past. They key is to come to peace with it and to move on, because unless you do so, it will continue to linger and get in the way of your happy future. I can only give this advice because I've been there many times. I gave my blood, sweat and tears to a company that laid me off without any notice, my world spun out of control and the after effects were of mass proportion. I didn't think that I'd be able to move on. It was only when I completely came to peace with what happened, that I was able to move forward and good things started to come my way.
Holding anger and resentment only harms and hurts you, it doesn't make a difference to them. Just know that when one door closes, another opens. Sometimes in the moment it doesn't make any sense. I know that its been several years for you now, but until you completely let go of the anger, you won't be able to move forward in a positive and happy way.
I hope this helps a bit. Please keep sharing.