Counting the days

[tright1bby]

Well my husband and I will go to our first meeting in a little over a week. We went to counseling in 2005, so here we are again.

He had a horrible childhood, and it seems that are marriage often pays for it. It is not an exscuse but as we seem to unpeel the layers of fear, hate sadness, well just about every emotion it seems that is always the reason for his acting out. That and something in the present triggers it. How he pays for the sins of his mother. I guess I am paying to :(

I always worry that something will delay the meeting, and I often do not get any peace until we get to the meeting. He is a strong man and has overcome alot. I guess that is one of the reasons I love him. He took the high road when his two brothers have taken the other. One of them leads a very very dark life.

Just wish I could settle down and stop worring.

[marcie]

We always give support, understanding and chance to those that we love. Do not put so much pressure on yourself, take one step at a time. Have faith and God will guide you through this journey. Wishing you a positive result and God bless you.

[tright1bby]

Thank you…Such kind words, it makes me feel better for standing by him. I guess when you think of it, I am not the one to judge him. The fact that I still love him is good. I just wish I could get past the hurt and his actions would stop haunting me.