So another pretty good day....I actually felt better than I have in a while! I am usually dizzy and moody by lunch time but today, I seemed to be ok!
Breakfast:
a cup (yes, I measured....to make sure I was getting enough!) of rice krispies cereal with a banana in it along with some flax seed and soy milk. Something about this breakfast makes me feel full but not disgustingly full....satisfied I guess. I kept thinking about how much sugar and carbs are in bananas tho....ed hates bananas
Snack....I tried again but no such luck :( Mind you I wasn't hungry at all!
Lunch:
Tuna steak with cut up veggies and a clementine. Had half a sugar cookie for dessert.
Snack....sugar free jello cup. I don't know if 5 calories really counts as a snack but hey!
Dinner:
TONS of grilled veggies, a ricecake, 5 shrimp, and some ham.
As you can see....I am REALLY trying with dinner to incorporate veggies, carbs, and protein. I managed some brownie again for dessert :)
My biggest issue is fat....I am TERRIFIED on fat in ANYTHING. Everything I eat is fat free or pretty darn close to fat free. I hate oil, cheese, mayo, peanut butter, etc. well, I don't hate them I am more so scared of eating them. Does anyone else have this issue? I can eat as many veggies as you want but when it comes to fat, it never happens.
I am already nervous about tomorrow night's dinner.....we are having homemade pizza! I wish I wasn't worrying about dinner tomorrow night.....
Katie,
Thank you for sharing, and I can see that you are becoming more aware of how your feelings are tied up very closely to food.
The feelings that are involved are the important aspects to discuss here in terms of reaching out for support, and the specifics regarding food is an issue that can be triggering and can cause others to compare and become very upset. This is an aspect of recovery that is best left for discussions with your therapist.
Please edit this post to remove specific foods and amounts so that this does not additional problems for others. I know that is not your intention. Please continue to share....thanks..Jan ♥
I hear ya katie, I'm basically afraid of all foods except steamed veggies and grapes, but grapes cause me to binge so I've tried to cut back, hasn't happened so far, I still binge like a cow.
I envy your food choices and applaud you for really trying, you go girl :)
Why would specific food items trigger anyone jan? I've seen so many mp details posted and not once has anyone said anything infact we talk about food all the time?
I sometimes find specified details about meal plans triggering because I often compare that persons meal plan to what I eat on a daily basis, and if I am eating more (for example; I am eating more than Katie is), then I start to feel guilty about how much and the types of foods Im eating and ED kicks in saying "well if he/she is eating only that much, you should be too" and it can lead to restriction. So yeah, thanks for the reminder Jan, as I do find those details triggering sometimes
I understand what you're saying simone but there are literally hundreds of posts about food in every ed section and it doesn't say we can't talk about food, just wondering why this post was singled out. If its a rule for one person, it should be a rule across the board and added to our disclaimer.
Gina,
I did not 'single' out any particular post. I simply can't read every single post, and when I do see a possible issue, I try to be sensitive and point it out. It would be great if all of you would do the same. As Simone shared, the very specifics are likely to cause a lot of comparisons. and everyone's needs are different. It's not a 'rule' for one person, but a reminder that we all could use more discretion at times with what we share publicly. Eating disorders are about food, but they aren't...you know? The thing that is best focused on are the emotions and feelings around food and how to de-couple emotions from how we react to food and feed our bodies.
I think we are all sensitive enough to think carefully abotu this without needing a disclaimer, but maybe I'm off base.
It's the comparison piece that can be twisted into problems. Take care...Jan ♥
I'm not trying to be a **** disturber but multiple posts u even have responded to lately have been foood driven and uve commented not once saying not to do it so I just find it odd that all of a sudden there's this new rule jan.
I really didn't mean for anyone to argue! That is the last thing I want to do!!!!! I am sorry that I posted what i did and now I know not to do it anymore.
Katie I liked reading what you had to eat cuz it made me think more about what i ate during the day and helped me think of what i could do better the next day... I know journaling it all helps you see how much or little you had to eat that day. It also helped me see that me only eating a couple bites or half of something and then being over it is normal. So they migfht not have liked it but I loved reading what you ate. Keep up the good work!
Katie,
Updates are probably more helpful (for YOU and others) when you share what kind of tools and techniques are helping you to deal with the emotional distress of eating, following a meal plan, and resisting symptoms. Dealing with the emotional aspect is what everyone else needs, not details that can be twisted by the ED in ways of comparison. That is my main concern. In a private setting, 1:1, with someone who supports you or understands, that is one thing.
Different things may trigger different people, and not all can be avoided, but some are more obvious than others.
What has been concerning to me is the trend lately towards reporting symptoms more than reporting progress or offering support or feedback about how to move forward. Not necessarily YOU, but it's something to keep in mind.
Take care....Jan ♥
I appreciate it! I would keep updating, however, it does offend some people which is not somthing