Each day makes me grow stronger and I go through stages. I just want to yell at my husband. I want to tell him how much pain he's caused me. I don't want to need him in my life. I want to know that I can live with or without him. I never thought I would ever experience this type of hurt. I know I made mistakes in my own way. What I feel right now is that he has to show me what he wants and what he needs because I feel like I don't want to try. How do you begin to trust? I've read books already and some have helped, but I struggle. He goes out of town through work and it's hard for me to trust him. He tells me he promises he will never do that again, but I never thought he would. Everything is so confusing right now. I feel like I have a wall up. I want to find inner peace again so that I can forgive my husband.
As your aware TRUST has to be earned. Are the both of you in any type of therapy if affordable? Once thoses walls go up (for our own protection) there difficult to tear down unless both parties are prepared to be an open window & hide nothing & have open communication.
Rule of thumb is: It takes as long to get the relationship back on track as it took to send it into the ditch. I've seen it happen so it can be accomplished over time.
We're here honey & listening to you.
All my strengths.
April