So day 3 went pretty good. I skipped my morning snack again so by lunch time I was starving...to the point where I felt dizzy. I swear that since ed, I have developed low blood sugar issues (hypoglycemia??). Has anyone else had this experience.
I managed cinnamon raisin bread for breakfast which I used to LOVE, along with some berries. These foods became so taboo to me and having them all over again is quite the experience. It's like a rush....I bring the food to my mouth and all I can hear is ed yelling at me "THAT'S AWFUL, DON'T DO IT! IT WILL MAKE YOU FAT!!!!" But I think about my goals and I shove it in my mouth...hoping that the voices stop. Somtimes it returns after making me feel horrible but sometimes he goes away. I hope that he goes away more and more as my journey continues.
Lunch today I had an open face melt...a small piece of bread with a piece of ham and a bit of cheese. Also had some veggies and a clementine. I was so hungry at this point I don't think it mattered what I ate. Being at school makes it a bit easier too because I am moving around, busy busy, so I don't have time for ed to get in the way of my thoughts.
Dinner....salad, ham, and a ricecake. The biggest challenge yet, however, was some of a mint chocolate brownie. I cut myself a sliver, closed my eyes, and bit into it. It was like heaven....I savoured every minute of it....but now I am sitting on the couch watching TV feeling okish. When I look at what I have eaten today I know that it is not enough but it is a HUGE step for me!
I don't think I could have done this without everyone's support, advice, and inspirational stories :) We can do this ladies....I have faith in all of us :)
Katie, congratulations! Wow, I am so proud of you. You are so strong; your meals of the day were so fantastic. It's all about staying on this powerful path and completely knocking ED thoughts out and away. Keep working on wiping those thoughts out, the more that you do that, the sooner they will be gone for good.
I experienced low blood sugar issues when I was recovering from ED, but it slowly but surely went away as I continued on the nutrition and meal plan that my doctor recommended. It was all about staying on the right path and not veering off of it. I took it one day at a time and I continued to get better and better.
You are so well on your way! Please keep up the amazing work.
Thanks :) I appreciate your support! I am trying SOOO hard to ignore his voice....especially around this time of year when EVERYONE around me is trying to lose weight while I am trying to gain it! It can be quite challenging but hey, I am fighting because it is worth it!!! :)
Have you returned to your healthy weight yet? If you did, how long did it take?? The reason i ask is because you said when you were recovering.....I would just like to know your experience!!
Hi Katie! Its been 15 years now since my ED and it took me approximately 6 months to return to a healthy weight, because it was a slow going process for me. It was a work in progress for the years following, meaning that it took me a while psychologically to catch up with my new healthy body. To the point, where I ate what I wanted and never felt badly about it.
I've been healthy and happy for 15 years, and I am actually healthier then I've ever been now.
Please let me know if you have any other questions. I am here to help you in any way that I can.