I am so tired of this depersonalization feeling. its as if its taking over my life! I really dont know what else to do. I have been suffering from anxiety/panic disorder since 2000 but everytime I have an attack it feels as it did the very first time

panic attacks are no fun. i remember the first time i had one i thought i was dying! my husband had to calm me down and tell me what it was lol. i dont know if this will help but maybe there is something that triggers you to have them maybe if you find out what it is that causes them then you can have less of them or eliminate them. i hope this helps sorry i couldnt be of more help. oh and also maybe if you wanted to you could talk to your doctor about giving you something to give you for your anxiety.