Depression... Sucks. I have been depressed since I was a very little girl, even though I had no idea what it was. My depression became quite a bit worse when I was 15 (had bacterial meningitis from an ear infection). After spending a long, long, LONG time at the hospital, I went back to "normal" life... "Normal" for ME... My depression would fluctuate. Fast forward 4 years- my mom died of cancer. Fast forward another 18 years- I deal with depression everyday; it doesn't matter how many doses of legal drugs I take, because I STILL feel like poo. Now, I'm taking Zoloft and Wellbutrin. I don't know HOW to deal with this. I would never kill myself: I love myself way too much to do that!?! Yesterday, I couldn't even go to work. I KNOW that I'm sad, but I cannot find ANY type of logical reasoning for this! If someone could please help, that would be great.
Well recently I have been listening to music all types happy and sad, and sure sad is a weird choice but I think that you should listen to music that shows how you feel and music that shows how you want to feel hope this helps
Thank you!
Well this a supoort group site for a reason just doing you what any other person would do for me just try to let the feelings in and don't shut them out
I've had depression for decades too. I certainly don't have all the answers, but I have found some things that help a little. One is exercise. The problem with exercise is that it doesn't feel like it will help when you are depressed. It feels like the worst idea in the world. But it can actually help lessen it if you make yourself do it. It also helps to talk to someone...even if you don't talk about the depression...maybe especially if you don't. It gets you out of yourself.
I've always found that skipping work makes it worse for me. Because then I feel bad about the depression, bad about missing work, and I spend too much time sleeping and eating and thinking about stuff. But it isn't always easy, I agree.
Thank you so much, @maybeblue! Very kind. 
It’s great to be back! I had completely forgotten about all the different people on here, yet we all share at least one thing!