i feel complete hopeless,some feelings that i m feeling
1: i cant concentrate on anything even important things in my life like my career,i have to study for my entrance test in a medical school which is in 1 month but i just cant start studying as when i thnk about start studying my brain comes up with billion other thoughts! and i keep on delaying thinking about important things or stuff i want to do in life!
2:i dont like most of the ppl around,like my friends that i really liked like 6 months back,with whom i was used to have lots of fun but now even normal funny things they do,it irritates me and i just feel like i m not a part of them.
3:i feel every person is much better then me in all ways:looks,smartness,more happier,more social,more bold etc
4:most of the time i feel tired,and i m sleeping almost 14-15 hours a day or more.anything important i think about,i feel sleepy and go to sleep.
5: started eating alot more then normal:again which i dont want to but cant stop/help it.
6:i feel worthless,a person who stays here or not,doesnt effect any one.
having all this,ive never let anyone realize that m facing all this,i laugh,i go out with family but inside i feel all this.
dear princess, your post is amazing. you are so smart and honest!
i honestly feel you are in need of medical evaluation. i was in your boat and until i got good medical help i suffered for years. that is my feeling.
you are doing such good good work. you are getting more and more introspective and knowledgeable about yourself and analytic about what is going on with you. that means you are looking into your behaviour and drawing conclusions about your thoughts and feelings that are important. you are your own best counselor.
you are smart and pretty and communicative and helpful and all the good things that you pretend to be when you are out and about. as you get better you will find that what you imagine comes true and you are those things that you are.
three things changed for me. one was getting good medical advice and medical care, including the right medicine, two was getting older and three was manifesting the good things in my life that i imagined for myself.
the good pretty smart things about me that i know to be true, those things came true for me by changing my thought patterns about myself. there is a therapist who teaches this method.
this is my story and i wish you all the best in loving thoughts and prayers. your prayer warrior, maria