Hi, my first time on here. I was needing to talk with someone that has been through what I have been through. I can't shake it. It seems like every time I get something going good in life, my past abuse, loss of my kids, comes back to me and then all my depression starts to kick in. What can I do?

Hey seuss75, We are so glad you made it to this site! It sounds like you have had a pretty tough past. I totally understand how hard it can be to try and get over past abuse. It is not easy!!! You mentioned in your post about loss of your kids. Can you explain your situation a little more so we can help! You can shake it. We are hear to support you!!

Hi, when I was young, at the age of 3, my mom abandoned me and my siblings. I'm the one who took it the hardest. Then I was sexually abused by my step mom (who my divorced) cause of that, my brother, and my oldest sister. When I was 14, I moved to my mom's whom I have not seen since I was 3, and lived with her till I was 16. I remember asking her, mom, do u love me? And she said yes but not as much as the other kids. Then she told me I would never amount to much in life, I would never find anyone to love for me. I had a baby boy when I was 16, and lost custody of him due to my mom having roaches and wouldn't do anything about it. I blame her for me losing my son. He is now 19 and in the Military and he totally hates me and wants nothing to do with me. After I lost custody, I moved with my dad in Arkansas. When I was 17, I got married and had a baby girl when I was 18. My husband at the time abused me physically, mentally, and emotionally. I was trying to leave with my daughter, but my husband threatened me. Things got better till I was 21 and had my son. Then the abuse started all over again. I stayed with him till my daughter was 6 and my son was 3. I left at that point. My husband already had custody so I couldn't take my kids with me. That was the hardest thing I ever had to go through...was losing 2 more kids. :( then at the age of 26 I met a young man online who is my angel. I thank God for him every day. We then got married and we have a wonderful family. Two years ago, my youngest son came to live with me in Minnesota till he's 18. He also has been abused mentally and physically. My daughter hates me just like my older son. How can I shake this and how can I go on?