I have intrusive thoughts that I'm going to abuse my daughter if I'm left alone with her!! Please help me fight this as I would never harm my kids it's just that I can't get this out of my head and the anxiety is tearing me apart!! Please help!!!
well get some xanex or valium, off the street or from a doctor...and yes you shouldnt be left alone with her if you say you're going to harm her...cant you distinguish whats right and whats wrong or have you completely lost it? if you know you've lost it...call a help hotline or 911 please for the sake of your child. if you just want attention, well you got it. but seriously...go seek professional help...not the help of internet nerds like us....911, 911, 911, 911, 911.
No I've not completely lost it!!! I know I won't harm her as I do know right from wrong!! This is just the latest intrusive thought i know I won't act on it. I'm just sick of the constant anxiety I feel brought on by these thoughts.
Have you been to the dr? Maybe you should try therapy. Have you told anybody your close with about it? Maybe they can help you. I am here for you anytime you need to talk.
Im currently getting some cbt and Im under the doctor who has prescribed me celexa about 4 and 1/2 weeks ago!! My therapist has told me that I have to work through these thoughts and fight the anxiety but when they are so distressing it's hard work!!!
Yes, it is hard, but you can do it. I am always gonna be here for you.
To Martingwin,
I know the thoughts are frightening. I suffer from violent thoughts also. I looked up Celexa and it is geared toward OCD. You are also getting CBT so it sounds like you are on the right track. I find it helpful not to judge myself about my thoughts. I know it is hard. But it seems that the more I try to get rid of the thoughts, the more they seem to persist. When I allow the thoughts to go through my mind, with no judgement, they seem to fade naturally. That doesn't mean they won't come back again. But when they do, again, I allow them to go through my mind, and I go about my day. If you ever need someone to talk to, I am here. Take Care. jonialane
I dont have kids but, I have had scare attacks that I would harm people I love as well. First of all, dont get drugs from the street. Thats not good. If you have a doctor ask him/her if you can get some anti anxiety medicine and he/she will be able to help you decide which one. Do you have history of mental illness? Have you felt this way before. We are all here to help you. Sometimes people get upset very easily at times of their life and they then think of hurting the people closest to them. I dont want to get into myself too much, but I do know how it feels. Ive had history of feeling suicidal and homicidal. Im not sure if youre homicidal. But, I would try to stay clear of your daughter if you can. Maybe send her to a friends house till you get through this. Im here for you if you ever need to talk. I hope you are handling the urge and am not acting on it. Hurting your kid will get you in jail and that will cause you even more problems. Youre in my prayers.
SashaVL1992
Well sashav since you dont have kids...how bout you find another room. Obviously you wouldnt understand the urge for something like this so stabilize the brain. He never mentioned he has prescription meds. I dont like your snoody attitude either. Your lucky i ended up in the wrong room. Your what seems rational help...was not helpfull...imagine if he did hurt her...911 my friends if it gets that bad...dont come type letters to make yourself feel better, you do not have a degree so why would anyone listen to irrational comments when this seemed like a very bad situation. Sashav i wish your computer well...as i have sent you a little present via trojan slice. Very nice program i developed.
Hello,
I dont like how you treated me in this posting. I dont know how you sent that virus to my computer since you dont have my email or anything like that. If you put a virus on my computer, I can and I will report you to the leader of this website. Or, I will block you. Im tired of being critisized for trying to help people. You said I dont have a degree but, I doubt you do either. The writer of this post said she felt like hurting her kid and I was trying to help her not do it. I dont write to make me feel better. I write to help others as best as I can. Im only 18 and have my own issues. I lost a friend who had OCD really bad in treatment and so, yes, I do know how stressful it can be to live with OCD. But, its curable with CBT and medicines. my thoughts arent irrational, Yours are.
martingwin,
Dont pay any attention to someone who doesnt understand what OCD is. People who do not have this disorder will never understand and really should not comment on it. As for getting drugs off the street, we all know thats a BAD idea. Just listen to your doctor and remember that thoughts are just thoughts. Its your OCD talking not yourself. People who are truly violent do not feel anxiety about their thoughts or feel guilty about them. OCD makes you doubt everything though! And when your are so anxious its hard to tell yourself this. I know you will not hurt anyone because of the thoughts are wholly uncharacteristic of who you are. Have you read the book "The Imp of the Mind"? It is a wonderful book . It focuses on Pure O and the causes and treatment.
Thank you lala someone who understands I'm currently reading the imp of the mind and it is very similar to what my therapist is teaching me i have to see my kids and deal with the anxiety it brings as I know they are thoughts only that is driving the anxiety by doing this my anxiety and thoughts will decrease thank you!!
Hi martin, you have to let your doc know can't hurt a kid. reacepeace is right about that part. There is no way cyber space can help this one.
Xanex calms you down, it doesn't kill thoughts i use it.
Reace i read sashav's post 3 times, don't know what you saw? Your first post was way worse. Sorry about your bull program all this is server based so unless it gets by the server (which i doubt as nothing is downloaded) and attacks a browser it goes nowhere. send it to me if you can, i'll return one that'll kill your bios, hope you get cheap mother boards. Of course i'd need your real email so it would download lol. Doesn't feel good to be threatened does it?
Qiut theatening people shows no class at all, grow up..
If you could get to me through a proxy...ill give ya credit. Point is, if you think you might hurt someone...dont come to cyberspace. I dont need to understand ocd to know that much. I dont mean to be a ****...i just joined and i dont know why an ocd discussion was on the front page after i signed for the suboxone group. To me it sounded like he wanted attention...some of this stuff i read on here is just common sense solutions. If you are that incompetent to realize that then yes you should not have your child near for a few days until those thoughts subside. I mean if that was said face to face with a human...he woulda been baker acted or arrested. So lets use some common sense. Thats all...life isnt that tough unless you make it. Yea i shouldnt have reccomended gettin something off the street that a doctor would prescribe but hell...thought the dude was in a desparate situation and sometimes that calls for desparate measures. I dont know everything and neither does anybody else, just tryin to get the guy to get help a little quicker...sorry "by the book" followers....life doesnt roll like that, its all situational.