Didn't go to therapy today...I'm not sure if I'm comfortable with my new therapist. It could just be that my old one was easy to talk to. Anyway, stayed in my "safe zone" today.
It's hard opening up to anyone new in our lives. But once you do, they can help you out tremendously. I hope that you start to feel comfortable with your new therapist and continue with your healing process.
@3RoundsAndASound Thanks for the support and I made a promise to myself this year I would get the help I need. Yesterday was just a mix of not wanting to face my fears of walking down the street (one part of my PTSD, and a guy pointed a gun at my daughters and I about two weeks ago) and my issues with my therapist.
No, you are not doomed to live in hell forever, but it will take you years to get out of the intrusive thoughts period. It took me years to shake intrusive thoughts that interfered with my life. Bit by bit I got rid of them, and now only experience intrusive thoughts when I am in a trigger.
My PTSD originated from stalking and sexual abuse, was furthered by an entire group of people who joined the stalking efforts.
I had to leave my prior support group because my stalkers gained access to that group and used the information that I gave to other members in order to harass me severely and trigger me terribly. They used the information that I gave in order to drive me into severe triggers.
That last time they logged onto the prior support group they saw my info and seized on it in order to attempt to drive me into psychosis and disassociation. It is their mission to stop me from living my every day life and they were successful in gaining information from other members of my prior support group.
These members were unaware of what was happening and I now know that the stalkers used my personal information to attempt to force themselves into my life, to track me. The triggering situation that I suffered due to their attempts was severe and has to do with witnessing crimes to others.
I am much more vigil now and I now understand that these people are trying to gain more information about me online. That is the life of a stalking victim.
I want to say hi to all of the people in this group. I enjoy talking to and supporting other people that suffer from PTSD.
@Wahrheit First of all hi, secondly…years? I have a lot of work to do. You are so right though, my thoughts are my biggest problem right now. It doesn’t help that I am dealing with a stalker also…so I truly understand the life of a stalking victim. Unfortunately for me It’s my daughter’s father and I’m trying to be fair, but he’s making it very difficult. Had to block his calls because he calls me all hours of the night. This is one of the most stressful, and exhausting situations and considering all I’ve been through that’s saying something. Thanks for sharing your stalking story it’ll allow me to be more aware.