I was diagnosed with anorexia when I was pre-teen. I have been through the inpatient/outpatient treatment with a world of success and happiness. I, for years, did not worry about the number on the scale(although have not gotten on a scale in years) nor the size of clothes even if the size went up. I never was the number counter calories, fat, carbs, etc and still refuse to count them I just knew what I should/shouldn't eat. I was happy with who i had become and I am still that way today with just a little "speed bump" that has recently come up. Why now? After all these years it rears its ugly head again out of nowhere. I am fighting the fight to put the ED back in its place but does 1 relapse (granted over a time of 2 months) require treatment? I have come too far to let this back in and that is why I am here.
That's true. It's ugly head had recently popped up again to a more severe level. Recently I drank and ate too much (over the holidays) and purged. Even though I blame it on the alcohol, and know I wouldn't do it if I was siber, I'm obviously here for a reason. Also, my day to day eating habits are too restrictive. I can't go out to a party without eating before, because I always fear the hosts won't have anything I will eat. I recently went to my fiance's house with a turkey sandwich, because I knew they would be eating pizza. Thanks for your reply. Good luck with your battles as well. It's not easy.
The first and most important thing we can do is reach out when we know we cannot do it alone. I appreciate your response and can feel your pain as well. Knowing that every day we wake up is a gift to us, we need to use it as that. A gift that we are alive and are here to fight another day and fight off the ED!
I read one of your other posts and it got me thinking. When I did binge years and years ago I did so on the same kinds of food. When I went through treatment the professionals all had ways to "cope" with the new lifestyle of not letting food rule our lives. My, and I cannot say it will work for anyone else, biggest success came in not eating those same foods I used to binge so hard on. You will have times when you crave them, but stay strong, you will eventually overcome the urge to first eat them, secondly binge on them. Be patient though, it does not happen over night. I also was not completely open to the professionals but took the advice they gave and customized it to what worked for me.