Do you think our Narcs even care when we are going off the deep end? With alcohol or drugs or wanting to end it? I know these may be ploys or tactics or manipulations to get back at them, but the bottom line is, do they get some sick pleasure out of taking us down?
Even killing us?
i believe once you've people pleased a narc for so long, well they've picked you to groom... They will not tolerate any signs of you changing the set up...
They are so arrogant to believe that you are their possession and that it is their right to pull the rug from under you to make you realise that they had the control all along ???
So yeah it is sick ...
They are Very SICK !
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@Yellowrose10 Yes, I can relate.
it doesn't matter what effect they 'truly' have as they will tell themselves and everyone else a different tale anyway ....
They cannot take responsibility for their actions as they are too selfish and are incapable of understanding how catastrophic their behaviour can have on their victims.
They do not have the ability for remorse.
Your energy abusing yourself at the.hands of their behaviour is wasted and after all, having had a relationship with a narc isn't the abuse they have already done been enough....
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Thank you peeps for your support. I wasn't actually talking about him going off the deep end.. more myself. Although he did tell me he would kill himself if I wasn't with him one point. I wad kinda talking about my own self abuse and trying to get attention from him. Thinking this is the only way I can reach him.
Omg. I hope I am not a Narc as well. We met in AA. Actually I am GDP as well. So I know I have s soul and feelings..
HSP. stupid autocorrect
Kerripoetess;
My dear girlfriend was a victim of a Narc for decades. One of the reason I'm here is to learn to be a more understanding and compassionate friend.
From an outsiders point of view, a Narc wouldn't care. They are like vampires sucking the life out of their victims. The worse you feel, the more in control they feel, the more they enjoy it. You will never make them happy unless you are truly unhappy.
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Yeah. I do want his attention. I am sick I guess.. Funny thing is he used to be my next door neighbor and I used to babysit him. He would try to convince me that we are on some kind of astial plane and that we were meant to be together. Lol
Yes tabbylady. So much I could relate to, especially on mod 3.
@Kerripoetess
I have posted so many deep things on this site, but they never went through. Oh well. My time isn't ready yet. Thank you for my angels here. :-)
I would say from experience that its complicated.
With me, my narcissist would see any negative reaction I had as a weakness, which might reflect badly on him. I had to bottle up so much for so long. And then, when it all came out in one go, the coldness of his reaction was unbearable. It was like now he'd used all my energy up, he could throw me away... I was now an annoyance to him. (I know... textbook)
But having said that, I do think he knew he was aware of the damage he caused, and may have (for a few seconds) felt guilt about it (and shame)...but to restore the world as he sees it, he shifted it all onto me with the help of his support group.
So yeah, I do think they can feel bad about what they've done, but the way the cope with that is to free themselves from any feelings of remorse or responsibility... which seems to work very well for them if they make sure their victim is isolated.
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