To keep it short, I’ve lived with suicidal thoughts since I was in middle school for reasons related to trauma. I’m always told that it will get better. Recently, my 5th attempt to get into therapy failed. It’s almost as is therapy is avoiding me. I’ve isolated myself from my friends and didn’t fully realize until it was too late, and now I truly and literally live for my family alone. But as time goes on and the kids grow up, I’m needed less and less. I have no hope anymore. The only good thing I can say about myself is that I’m almost 11 month’s clean from S/H. Although I’ve had my moments where I really want to relapse… this is kinda one of those times. I guess that’s why I’m here. I’m running out of options. I’m running out of time… I don’t think it gets better anymore.
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Welcome Arthur, is therapy alluding you due to your insurance, time, money??? Online therapy is a great option as it works around your time and often budget constraints. Can we tell you it gets better, well, it can get better, yes. We ourselves had a challenging childhood and it has gotten better as an adult. Can it get better with therapy and medication, yes, it can. Is anything a given or a promise, no, it can be hard. But we live for the beautiful moments and as you get older it is a little easier to be in charge of making your life a little brighter and more beautiful. -SG