So I went to the doctor the other day, she knows I'm underweight and tells me I need to gain. We've never really talked about or acknowledged my ED, but I have a feeling that she knows. But, my problem is, she wants me to stop being a vegan because she thinks its hurting my ability to gain weight. But morally, I just can't do it. I intern for PETA and giving up being a vegan is just not an option at all. I don't want to go back to this doctor if she's going to tell me to do things that go against my moral standards.
Hello there! Have you considered seeking treatment and/or therapy for your ED? As well, I would see a nutritionist who can put you on a proper vegan eating plan.
I've thought about it. But I can't afford it. And talking to my parents about it is not an option. And the only place I can go for free to, my mother works there. I do a lot of writing which is almost as good as a therapist. Ik i need to get healthy, but i probably won't be able to see anyone until i get to college in a few months because they offer free counseling and its 3 hours away from my parents.
Elphsk8....I respect your moral values, and I think that your choice is yours alone. I do however, doubt that you can truly recover without allowing yourself to break free from this very restrictive eating style. This style of eating simply does not work when you are trying to free yourself from the rules of an eating disorder. Even if you decide to go back once you recover, being so 'out of the norm' can often maintain the ED mindset, even though you don't want it to. Maybe you can seriously look at what you want for your future....freedom from the ED, or being locked in the prison of the Vegan lifestyle, which is very likely going to prevent you from moving forward.
I hope you will look at the bigger picture. Saving the 'Earth' and sacrificing yourself is not worth it in the long run....do you think?
Please seek help, and at least give yourself this chance to be free. Take care...Jan ♥
wow jan...
although not what ANY vegan wants to hear, you make a very powerful argument. i HAVE loved everything about mother earth and have fought for her safety... unfortunately, i am learning that i saved very little of that love and protection for myself.
elphsk8... i am vegan also- and am up against the challenge of a lifetime presently. my mind is orbitting out of control trying to find resolution-- in the meantime, many tears are being shed. but i am surviving. i can appreciate your situation- working with peta... YOUR life, however, is far more important, in my opinion.
i feel for you, vegan-sis. please prioritize your health.
namaste,
amy xo
Thank you Amy...the struggle is powerful for anyone, but I can only imagine the added emotional component for you and others in this situation. I DO respect and honor your right to choose...but sometimes LIFE demands choices we don't initially like. Treatment is temporary, recovery is forever....♥
I might be able to not be vegan for awhile, but theres no way i could give up being a vegetarian. I can't eat meat, i physically cant do it. The sight of meat makes me want to throw up. I believe that the meat industry is an industry of murder and I cant partake in that.
i hear ya' honey! vegetarianism is honored here... just not veganism. it's torture, but survive-able. breaking rules and having a rigid schedule are the very things i have needed to stop my nightmare with food. there was no way that i could have done it on my own. i'm not saying it's easy- b/c it isn't... but i am able to move through things here- when at home i was completely unable.
and yes, jan-
the added emotional component of attempted reconciliation.... uuuuugh.... is miserable. but you are right: life DOES demand making choices that we don't like. i want the forever of recovery....i will endure the temporary of treatment...
namaste, my sisters...
amy xo
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