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Mental Health Eating Disorders & Body Dysmorphia
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Hello everyone.

My name is Alicia, and even though I have other mental health issues and have spent years in therapy, I realized that I have NEVER ever talked about food issues there.

How strange? It's like my constant companion, so much so that I didn't even know it was a problem, even though I hate my reflection. Strange.

Anyhow, I guess I'm just admitting this for the first time, that I am a compulsive overeater/binge eater. What did I think? Did I think that all of this was normal?! Augh. Sometimes I'm disgusted with myself. But I guess since I've had food issues for so long that of course I thought it was normal, why wouldn't I have when it's all I've ever known?

*sigh*

I made a good step today. My diet buddy wanted to cheat, she wanted me to cheat with her (pizza, which I'm avoiding because dairy aggravates my fibromyalgia I think), anyhow, I told her to come over and I would cook some stir fry for us instead. We need to stop enabling each other, and it was a start, so I feel a little empowered. :)

I hope to find help here. I hope to get to a point where I can help others. Nice meeting all of you! :D

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I just realized i have an ED recently myself. I went to an OA meeting this past Monday. Baby stpes in the right direction are better than giant leaps in the wrong one.

Glad you are here.

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Thanks so much! I was considering OA, but I am kind of anti-twelve step programs for myself.

That's why I'm here instead! :D

I was definitely making giant leaps in the wrong direction for a very long time.

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I'm struggling with binge eating at night. I'm having the hardest time stopping. I know that if I take that 1st bite after dinner, I'm gonna binge the rest of the night. I recently found out the binges are distractions that allows me to "not" think about the real root of my problems or the real root of the problem.

I just don't have it in me to "not" take that 1st bite.