Ok so I'm new to this online support group thing. I decided to try this because I aged out of my last group and am not really comfortable with anything else thats offered in my area. I have a lot of things going on in my life at the moment and the vast majority are negative. I am worried that I am falling back on my old ways as far as self harm goes.
Its hard for me to keep track of how long I go without self harming. The thing is that I catch myself doing things that aren't overtly self injury... like I'm walking around my living room and bang my shin on the coffee table, even though its been in the same place forever. It's hard for me to tell some times if the accidents I have are really... well accidents. Under those terms its hard for me to stay positive by telling myself 'oh its been three months'. Cause in all likelihood it hasn't been that long.
Anyway I recently definitely took a running leap off the wagon. I don't want to go back to the place where my addiction ruled my every move; but I'm also in that state of mind where part of me says that its really not that bad and there are worse things that I could be doing.
I guess I'm just looking for some helpful advice or tips so I can not fall back on this.
Thanks, and its nice to meet all of you I guess! lol
We go through life sometimes good days and sometimes bad ones,therefore with all ups and downs, it is not that easy to keep yourself inline all the time, but what is very important that you are always trying to do your best. Do not be hard on yourself, have faith. God bless you.