Right now I can go either way. Either down right depressed to where I need to go to the hospital or somehow get myself turned around to relax and feel better, but I dont know how to do that right now. My anxiety is so high. My 3 year old is really not helping it at the moment screaming and I am trying to step away from her right now. My head is starting to pound cause of trying not to bust out in tears and trying not to scream. I have been feeling like this for a couple days now, well not this bad but it seems to be building. My mind has been thinking toomuch at everything in my life right now. My friend is going through some relationship issues so now I am thinking about my own. I keep thinking if I am really happy with where I am at right now. I look at everything and wonder why arent I happy? What is wrong with me? Why do I nag on my man for about the stupidest little thing? He seems to be taking care of me and my daughter really well. Why do I feel so lonely that I feel at times people dont seem to really notice me. Why do I feel the need to be around someone all the time to feel safe and fully happy? I know people really do care about me and love me but why do I feel like no one does? Why do I feel like I am always gonna get hurt some way somehow? Why do I feel like I am not a good person and a good mother? Why do I always feel like I am doing something wrong? Why am I still hurting about the past? I just want to sleep forever and not think anymore with my crazy mind.
Faith, am here for you. When I read this it seriously is something that I would have written (except I have a son thats 5 ). I have a friend that feels the same way I do but he is currently in aa class so he gets some help, but when he has a good day at class he come and share with me the insight. I know that it might be hard to talk to someone in face about issues you have but just opening you mind ( talking is what I mean) and just saying it out loud helps brake it down and makes you think of the bigger picture. Help reach out when ever you feel down. Anyone here can help keep you positive.