Feeling like I have no more support from my family. I only have my dad ( but I don't want to burden him bcoz of his illness)and my older brother ( also he has a lot on his plate) but he will help whenever he can. But my other siblings are making me feel worse. I texted my sister bcoz I was just angry at what my stbx did. I was so angry I put a curse word..she then replied.
Don't text me anymore if u will just curse. It was one curse..
My other brothers who has gone through divorce as well just kind of makes fun of my situation. Like that you know how I felt, but will not support you kind of feeling. I called them first when this happened but it felt as of they didn't want to he bothered.
Then my mom, which I love very much..shows a different kind of support..the blame game support. Often blaming me and doesn't realize its serious bcoz she thinks my stbx will change his mind. My and his mom so opposite..my mom is old fashion and she's been through a lot worse with her marriage but bothy parents tried and worked things out. So she thinks I didn't work harder and every little argument with her escalates into her saying hurtful things to me and doesnt really realize that I just need support and not advice. When I calmly say it's not going to help..she then starts getting angry and starts blaming me on why the marriage ended. So I told my dad that I think I will just lay low for awhile bcoz I want to escape my stress away when I come see them and not talk about it sometimes..bit I feel like Im just more stress then when I come home I just get overwhelmed. I dont know what to do anymore. Hiding my pain and anger especially hiding it form my kids is so hard. I feel like I'm going to have a breakdown again. And I don't want to. But then of I lay low from my family..what do I do Where do I go.......
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I am so sorry to hear that. I am headed down that road and that's why I'm on this online support group. Hope we can all help each other.