I have a female bestie since in was a kid. We both used to always be together talk laugh, cry ligit everything we did together. once covid ended and i became 16ish I fell in love with my bestie and told her that i love her but she does not love me but loves some other dude in her school. I love her soo damn much that i wanna marry her and have a family with her cuz when ever shes with me I genuinely have a BIG smile on my face. Her relationship with that boy is just for max a year more then they gonna break up. And today cuz from the last almost 2 years since i got to know about her relationship with the boy i burred my feeling and emotions deep down but i could not handle it anymore so i said her not to talk or contact me anymore cuz when ever she does it just reminds me about losing my bestie as well as the girl who i wanted to marry.
I really dont know what tf should i doo its been killing me from inside and i really feel to die
I understand that feeling. You’re definitely not alone, and not alone in that feeling/experience. Get out there, talk to people and try to connect with others again. Don’t go from an angle of “they aren’t like her”, or try comparing them to her. Instead, think of it as starting fresh, which I admit, isn’t easy to do.
We only have one life, and with such, we will go through many people whether we like it or not. We must take the lessons we learned from one person and cherish those memories as we move on to newer, and possibly better, friendships.
Stay hopeful that you’ll make meaningful connections, and don’t die - I’m sure your next future bestie is waiting for you!
So you are at an age where your emotions are at an all time high and honestly, Life is just beginning for you.
I remember when I fell in love with my guy best friend and he was dating this girl who was absolutely awful for him but I had allow him to discover that for himself. We still remained friends through out their entire relationship, even after the break up and he started another relationship with a new girl. It’s extremely hard to feel like you are the perfect person for someone and feel invisible because they just don’t feel the same way in that moment in time.
I can tell you that this moment in time will pass (IT SERIOUSLY WILL, I PROMISE) and when it does and you become a year or two older, you DO NOT want to look back and regret long term decisions made on an instant moment of emotions. Your ego is bruised and thats okay, it happens to everyone, you’re human but if she is your true best friend, you cannot force her into something that she doesn’t feel. I’m sure she probably is hurting to some extent just like you because now she feels like you dislike her for simply following her heart…If roles were reversed, would you want someone to hate you for following your heart?
It’ll get better and life will go on and guess what? You’re going to meet plenty of individuals that you may or may not fall in love with, it’s life…enjoy it and embrace all of it!
I also had this happen to me back in high school. I’ve known my guy best friend almost my entire life and I never saw him as more than a friend until high school. We used to be a lot closer when we were younger, but as we grew up, we didn’t see each other as often since he doesn’t really live near me and we don’t keep in touch, except wishing each other on our birthdays. I crushed on him for a few years in high school and like all the way through college, but I never told him and the feelings ended up going away on their own. I’m sure it’ll pass as time goes on and maybe you’ll be able to reconnect with her, but it might be best to tell her why you don’t wanna talk to her so she won’t be hurt or confused and she’ll most likely be willing to keep talk if you want to in the future too. I feel like just abruptly cutting her off especially since you’ve known her for so long will be hard for her too so it might be better to at least provide some closure or explanation so she won’t be wondering what happened.
