Today (and the last few days!) I have just been feeling awful. So sad. I mean, on NYE I just sat in bed crying and crying. It's so pathetic! I am nearly 17; I should be out having fun like the people in my college. Just feels like I am never going to be normal. I know people say normal does not exist, but I believe it does.
Anyway, after 8 years of eating disorder, I thought I was FINALLY getting somewhere. My bones are dissolving and very brittle, my throat is badly damamged, my heart does not work properly, my eyes sting etc...but the worse thing has always been my stomach. I guess it's part of the ED speaking to me, but I can't stand having a bad stomach as it really makes me feel fat, repulsive and ugly. I thought it was getting better! It was finally stopping to feel so bloated, but the other day it came back again! AGH >:( All my hard work of trying to eat regular meals and not over-exercise...for NOTHING.
Ok, I know it's not for nothing, it's good I've been eating well....I just want my tummy to be better :'( That's all I want.
Just feel like giving up now, 8 years of nothing but pain, and doesn't seem like it is ever going to go away.
Sorry for this self-sympathising note, just really had to vent lol
Oh Ruth, I'm sorry you're feeling so low and down sweetie :( you are such an outgoing girl and seem very socially active on fb so I'm a bit confused.
The stomach issues/bloating are my #1 complaint also, I can't handle the bloat anymore, nothing helps. I'm newly diagnosed with ibs so I'm still trying to learn about it. But you gotta push on, going backwards will create so many more hurdles and I think you've been through enough already. Hang in there gorgeous <3
I know, I do seem so outgoing on fb :'( I feel like such a fraud! I have 700 fb friends, because I know so many people and always try my hardest to meet new people. I don't know them though. That's the difference. I am just aqquaintences :(
I always try to be friendly, and I sometimes even feel tired from trying to start conversations with people so much. I always say hi and stuff, but everyone already has friends. I just don't fit in. I can say a joke or start a conversation, but it will fizzle out in a few seconds and I am just alone again. I don't know what I do wrong :'(
I'm not really very socially active. I have seen 2 friends this whole entire 3 week holiday. I know it's quality not quantity, but deep down I know i'm a really social person! I just feel trapped inside this annoying, pathetic loser of a person who nobody likes. I hate feeling lonely!
dont worry thie bloating will pass, i like gina, have IBS also, and so with that the bloating NEVER leaves( sigh great, huh) and IBS is very common with ED but , this is just a phase and you will get through this, it takes time for your body to adjust... im sorry you were sad on NYE, so was i --crying calling myself a fat cow....making my fiacee so mad he didnt speak to me till sometime the next day....sigh
oh and also make sure you get help for your ED cause this EDs are deadly and from what you described, it is hurting your health already. why get sick so young????
Ruth has done treatmemt, she is in recovery. I only have just over 100 friends on fb, it means nothing. Like u, ed has stolen most if not all my friends from me..I know its not the same but I got your back girl <3
Don't worry about bloating, that normally means theres too much air in you, not too much food. All you've done and all you've worked for is NOT for nothing! Its going toward your new NORMAL and HEALTHY life. I was the same on new years, I ate a serving of mini pretzels and threw them up. Then cried and cried when my friend fell asleep. Just remember how far you've come already. Remember your a gorgeous and beautiful person <3
Unfortunately I don't think this bloating will ever go. It's been consistant for 3 whole years! I don't think it's supposed to last that long right? :'(
I'm guessing it is IBS, and if that means it will never stop being bloated, I think I'd rather die :( I know that sounds awful, but after so long it's just like a kick in the face. Fighting ED only to end up like this, where's the reward or insentive to keep going in that?
I didn't want to get sick so young! I was 8 when I got anorexia, and I had no idea what was going on. I hate it, I've never wanted to be like this.
your complaints definitely sound like IBS to me, honey. i got it too and the only thing that ever helped me before was/is Acidophilus. and as well reduction of stress!! but unfortunately it is a huge effect of ED on your body but im sure once your ED passes IBS will be better too.
maybe for now observe if there is any specific foods causing the bloating, or maybe even in certain situations.
and don't you worry, YOU WILL BEAT THIS!!!!!!! got no doubt about it. you're so encouraging, inspiring and supportive on here and i think you now really need to see all that love and beauty that is inside you!! and there's a ton of it!
