This week has been VERY painful causing me a ton of sadness and anxiety. Typically when I feel this way I head straight to a bar or liquor store and throw myself a "pity party". Yesterday was especially tempting but I left work and drove straight home. I even poured out the beer and crown royal down the drain last night that was in the fridge. It feels good knowing I'm hopping back onto a healthier path but it's not easy. I wasn't an everyday drinker but I was a "once I start I don't know when to stop" binge drinker. Thursday nights are bowling night for me and I'm actually looking forward to tomorrow being the last week for the season b/c bowling and drinking seem to go hand and hand so it will be good to distance myself from that for a few months especially now that I'm starting a new outpatient program on Monday. I have to get it right this time. I tried this one group meeting I was going to whenever I decided I wanted to go but got nothing out of it. This new place is much more intensive treatment and I'm confident I'll do well.
Dlphs99, I am so proud of your for pouring out the liquor, as I know that took a lot of strength, and this just shows how you are on the right path and well on your way to recovery. I am so happy to hear that you will be entering a new program on Monday, most especially since the group didn't work for you. I know that you will get through this and come out stronger and better than ever before. Keep up the great work!
d gf.....how cool are you! love the new pic to! in my case i pour the quart of brandy down the sink and it gave me a oh-ah moment of power over the addiction instead of visa versa...you go girl!
Thanks so much ladies. Means the world to me to get positive feedback!
your a wonderful addition to the site although i'm sorry for what promted you to find us.
Dlphs99, of course, we are always here for you. Love that you are here with us, you are so fantastic! And, I second Kathy's comment....love your profile pic :-)